Sunday, April 25, 2010

[LATE] Getting To Know You

I apologize! I'm super late! Supposed to have had this up this morning, my bad. We had a lot going on today and as it was one of THOSE days, we'll take the fact that I posted this at all and love on that one, LoL. So you know what to do. Hit up MannLand and check these out!

1. If you could star in any movie genre..what would it be..romance..horror..comedy..suspense or action?
Ooh definitely comedy. I would feel a little adulterous if I was in a romance with anyone other than my husband. Comedy is what I love watching and living in real life so I think I could totally pull it off for a movie :)

2. Do you recycle?
Kind of. I save all my egg cartons and give them to the egg farmers around here. I get free eggs in return which is nice but I don't save them for that reason. I don't save my cans but as much soda as my husband and father drink, I will be. I do save my can tabs though. Did you know if you save your pop can tabs and give them to the Ronald McDonald House, you are giving them money? They use them for money for the people they help. DO IT!

3. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Honestly? No. Have I ever watched a porn? Nope. Dirty mags? Nope. No interest I guess. I have this amazing looking guy here *coughcoughHUSBANDcoughcough* and for that, I don't need any other man ;)

4. Do you have a nickname?
Becca. Beckie. And the one that I still sadly carry on from high school, Jew.

5. What's a name you can't stand to be called?
White girl. Cracker. Seriously. I go back to Fresno to visit Abel's family and it scares me. Mexican women glare at me because I'm with Abel, a Mexican. The little city they are from right outside of Fresno, is ALL Mexican. No white people. And no exaggerating. Why didn't I stick with my own kind? i get that one A LOT. I can't stand the names they call me in Spanish or English and I can't stand that they hate on me just because I'm white. Get a life.

6. What are your Summer staples?
Jeans. No seriously, no matter how hot it is, I am always in a pair of jeans. I can't show off my legs. It isn't that they are fat. They aren't too bad (until you hit mid-thigh) but with Hannah I ended up with so many scars thanks to my PUPPS and also with about 12-20-something big blue veins all over my calves. I'm too ashamed to show off my legs because I know people will stare and I know they aren't pretty. I'm embarressed and I honestly have very little self esteem. I bought a dress this year. I may wear it so I can stick my feet in the baby pool when I take the kids.

7. What was the last thing you bought for yourself?
HA! I buy myself things?? No, no I take that back. I bought Biggest Loser for the Wii for myself. Before that...No clue. I don't ever buy myself things. Unless it's food, LoL.

8. Are you happy with your boob size?
Yes. I like them. I just would like them a little higher. Haha.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Five Question Friday!

First off let me say welcome to my new followers! :) I hope I don't let you down in anyway and that we may become friends :)

Today is Friday as you know. And as I have been pretty mundane lately, I thought I could use a little something new. Different. So welcome to Five Question Friday. Anything that helps me let go of myself a little and tell more of myself is always welcome. Lol No honest, I'm not vain or full of myself.

So without further ado, courtesy of My Little Life here's Five Questions!

1. What was the first car you owned?
It was a 1985 Dodge Ram that I bought from my father. Yes, you heard me right. I purchased my own rig from none other but my father. All of my friends had beautiful brand new cars. You think I'm exaggerating but I'm sadly not. But out of everyone in my grade, I took the best care of my vehicle. My father taught me responsibility at an early life. His favorite phrase? "Nothing is free and no one ever gets handouts in life so quit looking and start working." And that was awesome. I paid half my insurance and paid all of my gas. Anything that needed work on my father paid for however. But he got it all done free I found out years later, LoL. Thanks to a family friend. This was awesome though and it taught me so much that I may not have liked learning then but appreciate now. And when my kids hit the ripe old age of able to own a car, they took will not be given one for free but will in fact purchase their own. It teaches morals, appreciation, responsibility and doesn't give room for laziness. Things that children nowadays (and some grow-ups too) lack...

2. What song are you embarrassed to know the lyrics to?
Any Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears or yes, Justin Bieber, LoL. I love pop. Still do. *blush*

3. Have you ever had stitches?
Twice. I had two on each cheek when I had my jaw surgery done. They had to cut a hole in my cheeks in order to put two screws into my jaw. It's a messy story never you mind...And then I had a few honeymoon stitches when I had Hannah.

4. What was your first job?
I got two at the same time. I was 15 and worked at Pizza Ranch here in town and I also worked at our local radio station as a DJ. Mostly on the weekends and for 3 hours everyday after school. It was fun!

5. Who is your favorite Sesame Street character?
Big Bird!! He's always been my favorite. Him and Snuffy. I try to get Hannah to watch them buts he has no interest. But turn on that awful Yo Gabba Gabba and boom! She's glued.

Now you guys get to head on over to My Little Life and link up and do your own!! Thanks for reading!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I Wish.

*I wish I had a better camera. I get tired of buying the cheapest one I can afford, use it for a few months even though the picture quality kinda sucks and then find it breaking on me, despise how great I treat it. I've been burning for a nice Canon or Nikon one. You know those ones that are in the, oh I don't know, $500 range? Yeah...My $50 one is dying on me and I could cry. I find the photos that are worth taking are always happening when I don't have a camera on me. Go figure.

*I wish that I wasn't having a guilty issue over wanting a really great camera. When asked what I want for my birthday or Christmas, first answer is always money. So I can shop for my kids. And I do. Well until Abel quit giving me money. Apparently I'm not supposed to spend money on others when it's given to me. Oops.

*I wish I didn't do such stupid things. Yet I do them constantly. I've been slipping up on my swearing lately. I haven't cussed since high school and I have found myself slipping some out lately. I could blame it on the people we hang out with but it's my fault. Temptation of any kind is not a friend of mine at all. I lose. Always. And I hate it too. I also messed up in a big way a few days ago too. I'm ashamed of myself because it was stupid. Really stupid. I was in a lazy yet rushed sort of moment and performed a ridiculous mistake. Everything was resolved which was kind of the person but still. I have a lot of guilt. I hold on to thing. Especially when I mess up. I can forgive everyone out there no matter what happens (trust me on that!) and yet when I myself screw up? I don't forgive myself at all...

*I wish I didn't have baby fever already. Not so much baby FEVER as it is sadness that I can't have anymore babies of my own. No doubt about, we will adopt from here on out but I just feel so robbed right now. Selfish sort of mood I'm in, can you tell?? Ignacio is getting so big, clapping his hands, walking along the couch, crawling, saying da-da, feeding himself. All these milestones hit and I am so excited and am ever the proud mam but with every one that comes, it makes me sad. No more baby. I'll get over it.

*I wish companies, designers, stores and people in general understood the fact that a 2 year old child should NOT be allowed to wear such revealing clothing. We put such hatred towards child molesters (with all reason!) but yet dress our children in the clothing that draws a man's eyes to their little innocent bodies. I saw an episode of The Duggars (Yes I LOVE them!) where their girls wore what looked like jumpsuit bathing suits. I wish I had one honestly. Hannah's butt cheeks hang out of her bathing suit. Her suit makes it look as if she has cleavage. She's 3!! And that is okay by society's standards?? It makes me sick.

*I wish people didn't dog the Duggar family so much. They do a much better job raising their children (all 19 of them mind you!) than I do with my 2. Seriously. Have you ever seen any of them raise their voices at their children in anger?? I do. All the time. I see myself feeling guilty when I watch their show because I wish I was better. Person, friend, mother, you name it.

*I wish I had more interesting things to write about some days...Maybe a good hot topic could rile everyone up would be really interesting, LoL.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Book Review time!

So, I joined Booksneeze and have been able to request books and review them for free. Which not only is an awesome freebie but also gives me a chance to read new books. Ones that I would not normally read. It's opened my eyes :) This time I requested Mary-Ann Kirby's I Am Hutterite.
It's a fascinating true story of a young woman's journey to reclaim her heritage.
In 1969, Ann-Marie Dornn's parents did the unthinkable. They left a Hutterite colony near Portage La Prairie, Manitoba with seven children and little else, to start a new life. In one day, they were thrown into a world they knew nothing about and the world they were in, knew very little about them. Obviously, it was quite overwhelming. Ann-Marie, who was only 10 years old then, was forced to deny her background and where she came from in order to try to fit in.
This book basicaly chronicles her life and mission to reinvent herself as she learns about the painful circumstances that forced her family to leave behind teh only life she knew.
It's a really good book and extremely interesting and I definitly give it thumbs up. I just wish some parts weren't as slow as they were. I'm just not used to reading true stories or biographies or anything of that nature nor this. So overall, I liked it. :)

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Update On The Chaos

So I disappeared for awhile, I hope you noticed :) Dad had gone into the hospital last week, but this time only 18 hours after he got out. He was knocking on death's door too. I had to sign DNR papers on him which was the hardest thing to do for me. I felt (and still feel partly) that it was me giving up on him. The medical part of my mind knows that honestly, it is the best thing. Let God do what He is going to do and not intervene. Dad has been suffering for so long, it's time for him to go home and be at peace. But the me side of things is yelling out "That's my dad! Make him live! Do something!" The hardest part of the 3 days of not knowing if he was going to live, was watching him suffer. They had him on so much morphine it was unbelievable. And yet he was still hurting and struggling to breathe and at times would just quit breathing. Now he is doing much better. He had a white count of 60 thousand which they tell me is enormously too high. 8 thousand is normal?? He is sitting in a chair now and they are discussing physical therapy now that he is doing better. He's definitely much weaker and sleeps a lot more now but he's here. I'm told he won't be for long, that this scare was only the first and they don't think that with the next time, he will make a recovery. So we are just taking it day by day and enjoying what time we have with him.
My aunt Bev and uncle Chuck came down from Washington DC to stay with me and be with us during this whole thing. I have never met my aunt before due to family issues from before but this week with them was the blessing out of the whole thing. My whole philosophy on look for the bright spot in every situation is always, ALWAYS true. You just have to be willing to look. And in my situation here, that was my bright spot. I met and hung out with family. I got to learn more about my grandparents who died before I was born. I got to find out that I look like someone other than my mother. And I got to hear stories about my dad and learn more about him and his life pre-me. Plus, we had a really great time playing cards and just hanging out. They are coming out here again in September with my cousin Tim and his wife and son and will be here for more than a week. And next year, we are planning on using Abel's vacation for a trip out to them.
The kids are doing good through this. Hannah isn't really aware of what is going on. Just that papa is in the hospital again and not feeling well. Even though she is only 3, we are pretty straight forward with her. I never had people straight up with me as a kid so I'm changing that with her. She knows about death, we have had plenty of fish and even a cat die. And she does okay with it. She may not totally grasp it completely yet but at least she knows. It's just going to break my heart more for her than anything. She is a true to heart papa's girl.
So that is what has been occupying us for the past week. Been a bucketful of fun I tell ya. But everyone is doing well now. My family is taking off today for home. My aunt works for the Supreme Court and they have been calling her daily for assistance and how-to's so she has to sadly get back to work. And my uncle works in one of the Smithsonian museums, I can't remember doing what. So life in the big city is telling them to get home, LoL. And now I get to start two big wedding projects for some friends of mine. I'm making guest book scrapbooks for them. Create teh book up and then snap pictures of the families that come and then have them sign their page and later put their picture up where they signed and instead of a blahsy guestbook with just names signed, you get photos too. Am I the only one who looks back on my guestbook and can't remember who half of the peole are? I reconize faces but not names. How awful is that? I wish I had done this at my wedding...
So anyways, I'm off to tend to my e-mails and other virtual errands and then to deal with the rest of the day. Lots of love and best thoughts for the day!

Getting To Know You - Sunday, Funday :)

Due to all kinds of chaos, I have not been on for a while. More about that on a different note. For now, I leave you our Sunday edition of Getting To Know You, courtesy of the ever famous Mannland5

1. Men's chests..hairy or hairless?
Ugh! Definitely hairless. The whole hairy chest thing kinda makes me grimace. Abel has Native American in him and he swears that is why he is so hairless. Even on his legs he has scarce hair. I love me some bald chest action, haha!

2. How often do you run red lights?
Never. I see a yellow and I stop. On a serious note, I have seen cars demolished all because one impatient ass&^%$ seriously couldn't handle waiting about 2.15 minutes. So the red light hit and he zoomed on through and next thing you know, 3 children are taken into intensive care and only one of them survived. It was that bad of a hit. So. I tend to, you know, follow the law and all. Call me crazy.

3. If you could raid any celebrity's closet...whose would you raid?
That would be Jessica Simpson's. A-She's curvy like me so I know her stuff would fit and let's face it, if I'ma raid a closet and walk out with stuff, the stuff better fit! B-She has a cute but simple taste and that's me. I don't do $900 shirts or a $493 pair of socks that have been bedazzled. No thanks.

4. Would you rather have more followers/friends on Facebook, Twitter, or your Blog?
Blog. I have about 400 people on Facebook, all of them I know too. And I think I only talk to or have anything to do with about 100 of them. Facebook is a numbers thing. I want my blog to have more followers sure but the people who are on it are actually communicating with me and I actually have a relationship going down with. Sometimes I get the occasional butthead but you know, trolls are everywhere and you almost have to feel un-loved if you don't get one :)

5. What makes you feel sexy?
When my hair is damp from teh shower and down, I'm wearing contacts and sunglasses and I am not having a bloated or "I am fat" day. When Abel puts his arm around my waist and tells me that I'm his. Or late at night...Haha! I'll save details...But you get the clue...

6. I get excited when...........?
I get mail. Seriously LOoOoOoOve getting mail. I know my mail lady and my mail men closely and personally, haha. I'm like a golden retreiver when his master gets home. I am THAT bad.

7. Are you the "outdoorsy" type or more "indoorsy"?
I'm more indoorsy. I hate to say it because I grew up in Montana. Our idea of fun was playing in the woods for hours at a time. We never sat in teh house watching tv or playing video games. But after I moved to California with my mom in grade school, that's where I went corrupt.

8. Would you rather have your dream home or a million dollars?
Million bucks easily. I could build my dream home and still have money left :)

Saturday, April 17, 2010

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Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter!

I hope everyone is having a fabulous day today! And remembering the TRUE purpose of this holiday. To remember the one who died for us. Sacrificed Himself for our sins and washed us clean. Are you remembering???

First stop today, check out Mass Hole Mommyshe has a fabulous giveaway going on for teething bling! Perfect if you have a teething baby like I do! I want one of these for Ignacio. No teeth yet and STILL teething and gnawing on everything like a mini beaver!

We are having a great time so far. Yesterday was the big Easter egg hunt that I put on for our town. A friend of mine and my husband and I stuffed a thousand plastic eggs with all kinds of treats and candies, got together 50 prizes plus 2 grand prizes for whoever found the two special eggs out there, and then spent an hour hiding them all. It went wonderful to be honest. I survived the stress of changing the location at last moment due to some unfortunate flooding of our original area. I also survived a public chewing out, and my butt shall heal thankfully. I won't go into details because I don't want to relive it again but I was in the clear, it wasn't anything that I could have done better or differently therefore I feel no guilt. What counts is that about a 100 kids had a fabulous time. And I have decided that while there will be people who will never be completely satisfied with how it goes, I still will push on and put on one every year. No one else will and knowing that these kids loved it this much, I want them to have something every year. So it went wonderfully.

My children woke up this morning and we brought down their Easter baskets for them. We don't do the bunny, only in jest. We did the story of Jesus dying and being resurrected and then we let them open up the gifts. Hannah got a Precious Moments basket that came with a dolly and some goodies plus a notebook and markers. Ignacio's held a stuffed frog and a few pieces of goodies that mommy was only too happy to eat for him, LoL. They also got both Toy Story movies as well. So it was a good Easter for them. We are now currently cleaning the house and doing laundry while I am continuously cooking and baking as we have some friends of ours coming over with their kiddos for dinner. I love cooking for others! Hannah got to pick out a few Easter goodies to give to them so she is excited for that as well. I'm teaching Hannah how to be giving and un-selfish. I think it is starting to take effect. I hope....

We are moving soon. Just houses, not towns or anything big like that. They have suspected our house to have black mold and it being the cause of dad going into the hospital so frequently. So Abel went down to our dirt basement to look around and he found mold growing everywhere. It's easy to fix, you just spray it with a special chemical or something and then pour cement. But we don't have time to do all this nor the money to put into a house that won't ever get sell for the amount we've invetsed so we have decided to buy a house and sell this one. So hopefully within the next month, we will be in a bigger and better house. Hopefully, keep your fingers crossed and prayers a'coming!

Well, my timer just beeped so it is time to baste my ham and get some more food going. I hope you all have a blessed holiday. Enjoy teh family and friends you are spending it with and remember to say an extra thanks at the table. For the one who died for us all! From the Guerra household-Happy Easter!!