Getting To Know Me...

So since I have a handful of new followers, I have decided to do a get to know me sort of thing. You can ask me a few questions and I will try my best at answering them. I've been seeing this get done from other bloggers and have decided to join in as well. This should be fun! I will take questions until, let's saaaay...Saturday. And then Sunday I will post my answers :) Sound like fun? :)

I'm Not Your Mother!

Appreciation. It's not that hard of a thing. When I was younger, I forgot to say thank you to one of my mother's girl-friends after she took me to the movies and she got angry. So angry that she shook the piss out of me and yelled in my face about what an ungrateful little brat I was. I've always been a shy, well behaved person. That incident turned me partly into who I am today. Why? I hate to make people angry. I don't say anything to anyone about how I feel or if they upset me, because I don't want to anger them or upset them. And yes, I hate receiving gifts from people because of this. I feel guilty when people give me things. All my life I have viewed myself as not good enough. As ungrateful. It's ridiculous how one little event can create such a mess of a person.

Why this little glimpse into myself today? Because today I have realized that I am under appreciated and deserve a little bit more.

Abel loves lasagna. Could eat it every meal, every day, all year long, kind of love. Abel wishes I would make it more often. I hate lasagna. Used to like it before I met him. Hate it now. I hate making it and yes, I have even grown to hate it's taste. Why? Because my lasagna is not as good as his mother's. So childish I know. But it upsets me. And today I let him have it.

Yesterday was a horrible day for me. I don't know why but I felt like crying at the drop of a hat. I snapped at everyone and even snuggling Ignacio and watching him smile couldn't get me to even a grin. That. Never. Happens. So at 9, I put both kids to bed and crawled into my fluffy pj's, denied my husband and went to sleep as fast as possible. Abel got yelled at yesterday morning because Ignacio had woken up fussing, I was still sleeping and he was laying in bed watching TV and not getting up to do anything for Ignacio. I snapped and it went from there. Well, this morning I woke up at 9 am realizing how late it was, went to check on my son and he was gone! Turns out my husband had gotten up an hour beforehand and taken my son down with him. Something must have been eating at his conscience...

He asked me why I didn't make lasagna often. That he was glad I had made it yesterday. So, Beckie, for the first time ever, let someone have it without any tears of frustration or hiding behind anything. I hate making it and hate that I hate making it. I used to enjoy making it for him but every single time I make it, the first words out of his mouth are "It's not as good as my mom's but it's okay." I'm tired of having my stuff compared to his mother and if he wants food like his mother's then he needs to go back with his mom. I feel better now and was really glad that it didn't start a fight and that he apologized and it was over with just like that. I feel so much better about it and that's what counts. And I'm learning that I no longer need to hurt myself by sheltering others, if I am upset well then dang it, I'm letting you know. LoL.


On a much brighter note. I received my awesome Valentine's box from Amity. Tell me how awesome it is to sign up for a Valentine's Day exchange and end up with your best friend as your partner?? LoL. I definitely got very lucky and blessed! So our box came:( address has been blurred to protect my identity)



And inside were these:



Which were these:



As we opened them we got to find a awesome cheerful new apron which will save my shirts lives from now on :)



And a hilarious new book which I will DEFINITELY be reading



And some yummy homemade goodies which I would love to know how to make myself



And some pretties



for my pretty



And a handsome new hoodie for the boy as well.



Amity also sent some new clothes for my pretty and I would love to take a few photos like this one



But sadly she stole them all and is playing dress up because she can't decide what to wear today, LoL. So that was my wonderful Valentine's surprise :) So come tomorrow (pay check day!!) I get to send off a box for her and her pretties (and handsome man too) and wait to see how she enjoyed them too :) I love exchanges :)

So with all this said pardon the picture quality, I sacrificed my digital camera batteries for my pretty's leapfrog computer thingy and need more, so you'll have to settle for my Blackberry camera quality :) I'm off to fix some dinner and change little man now. I hope everyone had a fabulous day and I will venture on here again. Another day! Ciao bellas!

*Beckie*

No Theme For Today??

Well then, I will make my own up! LoL. I love how each day there is a theme on everyone's blogs. Wednesday is Rant and Rave which I do sometimes....Rarely but still sometimes. And Friday Fragments I've been known to do too. Today I need something random and I can't seem to find nor remember if there is a theme for Thursdays. So I'm doing it anyways!

I follow an awesome blog and yesterday she had begun a 14-day challenge for us married women. I'm not active in it because I have done it before and because I'm holding out for the Love Dare challenge coming up after it. It isn't that my marriage is perfect, it isn't but it is close to it. I know, a lot of people say that to hide what is really going on, but I wouldn't lie on my blog, nor hide things. This is pretty much one of the only places I can come running to, to let it all hang out. There was a time when my marriage wasn't going to last another year. Yes we've only been married 5 years now, (well a few short months from it at least) but believe me when I say it's been a looooong 5 years. It feels like 10 for us in reality. We've survived things that most married couples wouldn't and I hold that near and dear.

Have I ever told you guys that Abel and I only dated for 28 days before we eloped? Before that, we barely knew each other and even then we had known each other for 3 months maybe? Nice right? LoL. I know what you are thinking and crazy is probably in one of the sentences. But you know, I don't see the big deal honestly. We prayed about our relationship, stayed pure to ourselves, (Abel and I had only kissed and held hands the entire time we knew each other and dated) and when we eloped, we made the contract to ourselves and to God. Meaning, we meant our vows and had agreed beforehand that there would only be death as our way out of the marriage. I wish people who were getting married would be more concerned with the vows instead of the dress or the reception afterwards you know? Divorce runs rampant and it's hard to not get frustrated. I grew up in the most un-conventional family you can come across. A divorced mother turned lesbian with her life partner (now legally wife) raising us. But it was hard not seeing both parents daily and not having what everyone else had. When I lived with my dad and was in girl scouts, the mother and me programs were often and yet I had to miss out. My dad's boss took me bra shopping and I never had interests in sports until I moved back in with my dad in high school. There are things I missed out and yes I hold my parents responsible for that. So I grew up telling myself, I would never get divorced and I hold onto that very strongly. I firmly believe that if someone gets married telling themselves that there is always a way out if things get bad, they will never make it. People have gotten so lazy anymore. Something gets hard, run or find the easiest way out. I know, I can't say much about other people's life because I'm not there but believe me, Abel and I have been through a lot and made it through just fine, because we believe you can work through anything and come out stronger and better than before.

I should have been born back in the 1950's.

I guess I got my kick from watching that Teen Mom show on MTV. I feel for some of the kids but then there are some of them that I wish I could be there and give a wake up chat to. Some whine because they can't go out partying all the time like they want to. Some whine because they can't get along with their boyfriends but yet they are the ones always screaming and causing fights with them. In the middle of this stuff, are the babies. It just makes me feel really lucky and blessed to be with Abel I guess. I pray daily that when I teach my kids to stay abstinent that they do. It isn't a holier than thou thing by the way. I get that a lot. "You want your kids to think they are better than anyone just because they won't have sex?" Puh-lease. I want my kids to stay STD and cootie free. I want my kids to grow up without worrying about if the only reason a person is with them is for the sex. I want them to not have to be a parent of a child when they themselves are still one. And I want my kids to be able to look at a rumor of them being a "slut" or a "man-whore" and laugh at it because it couldn't possibly be true.

I truly feel guilty for hiding me on here. I try not to bring anything personal on here because not a lot of people share my beliefs. I'm scared of scaring people off to tell you the truth. Or to start a debate or get criticized. Lots of excuses for hiding myself. I am a Christian and extremely proud of it. I'm also Jewish as well and very proud of that too. I'm a bottle feeding, baby wearing, non-cloth diapering, Hamburger Helper making, junk food and non-organic eating, naive, sometimes judgemental, sometimes emotional, shy, kinda woman. When I get angry, I don't think well and usually the first thing to come out goes straight out of my mouth before I can think about it. And I do live my life kinda weird to everyone but I love it. I am a stay at home mother. I cook and clean on a daily basis. I am a homebody and love it. I put everyone before myself. When I get angry with someone I never tell them because I don't want to hurt their feelings or upset them. I over analyze everything. And I ramble. A lot. I serve my husband and childen their food because it makes me happy as well as take care of them and clean up after them all, husband included. I love colors. I'm very sarcastic. I never swear. The only alcohol that passes through my lips is a Mike's Hard Berry once in a blue moon and never a full bottle. I have OCD (which would explain the half bottle thing) and I also have anxiety. I never followed politics before Obama and Palin. I do not ever declare Rupublican party or Demacrat party. I am a I-vote-for-who-I-wanna-because-I-wanna party. But was a huge supporter of Palin, and NOT one of Obama's. My children and husband are Mexican American and we speak Spanish in my house and no, I don't care if you get pissed off that we aren't talking English in this country. And yes if you get offended when we speak Spanish, I will get offended too. I have high morals and values. My husband and I never yell at each other. We don't argue in front of the kids. Ever. And if I know that someone yells or swears or fights in front of their kids, they won't be able to watch my kiddos or have them over for any sleepover.

I don't know what sparred me to rant today or ramble but it was time. I thought I had a road block for my blogging. I'm a dull blogger and no fun but things will be picking up. I may be the quiet type when not on my computer but this is where I need to be the real me. :D Hope you stick with me after this! Things may get exciting finally.

Anyways, I get to go finish my loan papers (getting a new car finally!) and then some shopping and cleaning. So hope everyone is having a fantastic day! Oh and go visit This Mama Rocks! She is having a fabulous auction to raise monies for the Red cross for help and relief efforts in Haiti! Tons of amazing stuff!! Including a carseat too! Last I saw it was going for $20!

Cancellation Notice

I have decided to cancel my birthday this year. I will just allow myself to be 25 but that is it.

I used to get frustrated because no matter where I have ever been, every year (And I really do mean every year!) on my birthday, there has been a storm which always prevents me from doing anything or going anywhere on my birthday. So you see, me celebrating ON my birthday hasn't ever really happened for me.

This year, what could possibly happened that may cause my reason of anger and sadness enough to cancel my own festivities?

Lung Cancer.

Not me. My father. You see, while being in the hospital yet again, they decided to do a CT Scan on his lungs. When studying the results, they came across 3 lumps in his chest that when comparing to all of his xrays in the past (the latest one not even 2 months ago), they have found that these lumps have been growing at a pretty quick rate. So now we are to venture off to Bismarck to have more tests done. It could turn out to be nothing. But the doctor doesn't think it will. And if it happens to be cancer, my father doesn't get to receive any radiation or chemo or surgery or anything. His health doesn't allow him to be a candidate.

Pretty depressing huh? But nonetheless we will not stop praying and I won't jump too far into conclusions although I pretty much live there right now.

So 6 days from now. I'll be 25.

And hopefully, dad won't have cancer.

And hopefully there won't be a storm of any kind.

For once.

My Word!

It has been awhile hasn't it? I apologize. I'm a slacker and have not had much motivation for blogging lately. I don't know why or what's wrong with me. It should be back and I'll be a daily blogger again! LoL.
So I hope things went well with everyone's holiday season :) The kids and I go to be flown down to Las Vegas for a 4 day visit and then off to California for a two week visit that was only supposed to be a week long. It was fabulous! But let me begin in the beginning....
We left on the 27th to get down to Vegas. The trip wasn't as bad as I thought it would be what with two kids, a stroller, two carseats, two bags and a diaper bag. I begged and prayed for someone to assist me when landing and I found a fabulous woman who turned up right as Hannah threw herself onto the airport floor and refused to get up. Apparently toddlers get tired right as you don't need them to be. So this woman not only popped out a lollipop to quiet my child and turn her into an obedient princess, she also grabbed my carseat and luggage and walked me to the shuttle that was to take me to my hotel. I cried. I couldn't help it. I. Was at my wits end. Hating that I was 5 states away from Abel. Was alone with two kids. It was great!! So we got to Circus Circus and met up with my step-sister and her two kids and got checked in and into our rooms. Which memo to self. Never stay at Circus Circus with children again. I don't know how your children are but when a hotel can't even put locks on their doors and the valet is telling me a story of how a 2 year old wandered off without her parents knowledge...yeah sign me up for another stay!!
So we got to surprise my mom, visit the casinos and funness that we could. Oogle the shows that we wished we could go to and of course buy souvenirs and take lots of pictures. It was fun but crowded of course and I missed Abel, LoL. What more can I say?
So, on our way to California! My mother lives 30 miles from Twentynine Palms. Yucca Valley. I love the desert so seeing nothing but desert and yucca trees and joshua trees made me happy. Anyone else it probably would have made them gag. We spent a few days just chilling, getting over colds and visiting with each other. When Christmas day came along, we loaded everyone up and headed off to Disneyland. My one advice for you if you ever go to Disneyland. Tuesdays and Wednesdays are the best days to go and never EVER go on Christmas day. We got to hit It's A Small World with the kids, watch the parade, get souvenirs and that was it. Within 4 hours of being there. It. Was. Nuts! They quit selling tickets at 11am and I have never been there for that to happen! After all that fun we went to our hotel room, got dinner and the kids and my moms went to bed (it was 7 at this point) So my step-sister and I headed back where thank you Jesus for those fireworks and parades and Fantasmic show because of those, we got to hit tons of rides and get tons of pictures. It was awesome and I'm very glad we went. Hannah and Ignacio's first time wasn't the best but it was great. Hannah's face as she saw everything and got to meet Mickey was priceless and I'm so glad we got to go! I'm thankful to my parents who paid for everything. We went down with zero cash whatsoever. Mom, I won't badmouth you for awhile, LoL.
So then we were supposed to leave two days after that but found out that North Dakota had shut down everything for two days due to snow and storms so I had to change my plane ticket. I got it changed but just for future reference, never EVER fly Allegiant Airlines. They broke my stroller in half somehow and also broke my suitcase which they refuse to pay for. Jerks. And I paid extra money for their flex plan which allowed me to change my ticket at any time, they refused to honor that so my mom had to shell out $400 to have me shipped back home. Way to be Allegiant. Dirty *&%^%*&%^.
It really was a great trip though but I was sooo happy to get home to Abel again. The kids were too. Hannah didn't let go of daddy for a long time, LoL. We also got to go visit Abel's family for two days too so I did get to see family and it was good but nothing like home! :)
My lessons learned though? Never travel without Abel, never fly Allegiant, never go to Disneyland on holidays. And always smile no matter the drama going on within the family :) I hope you all had a fantastic Christmas and new Year's. I apologize fo rthis being so short but a handsome little man in the front room is demanding some mommy and me time. Lots of love and happy thoughts!!

*Beckie*

Critter Cutter Giveaway!

Head on over to Oh My baby! She has a giveaway going on right now for critter cutters! Super awesome and easy to use cutters for sandwiches! The company I'm using to buy them from is www.sweetmadys.com but Oh My Baby has the actual website for you on these things. They are different shaped cutters that you use to cut out animals or puzzle pieces from sandwiches. Hannah is picky with her bread, no crust and she won't eat it whole. So I'm stuck spending 10 minutes making and tearing and cutting a sandwich and these will cut it down to like 5 seconds. I'm gunning to win the puzzle piece set for Hannah but I'ma blog about it to give you a chance to hit it up too. And if you know a godo deal, you will :)

My Puj Tub

I know that for some of you, this probably will not even matter. but for those of you with small babies or about to have a small baby or know someone who has/is having a small baby, this is definitely for you.
I signed up to be a Puj Tub tester and they sent me a free Puj Tub to review. So today after I got it in the mail I tried it out. The Puj Tub is a really sturdy, almost soft plastic like tub. It arrives flat and stays flat unless you are using it. When you are ready to use it you snap it into place thanks to some pieces of strong magnets. It snaps into place really easily and you can fit it into most any sinks. I tried both the kitchen sink (which is super small) and my bathroom sink (which is also super small). And Ignacio fit into it perfectly. I will tell you right now that the only thing I didn't like of it, I couldn't wash his hair in it without a bit of difficulty. But it is wonderful to use for a quick bath or just to wash off the spit up or messy diaper leftovers. He sat in it really comfortably and even giggled while I washed him. I tend to have bad knees so kneeling on the ground while bathing my son hurts like heck, so with this tub I got to stand and let me tell you how wonderful that was! Really.
The nice thing was that I used half of the water that I normally do and there was never any fear of the water over flowing. there are slots on each side that allow the water to drain out. I didn't make a mess and neither one of us (the baby or I) slipped or fell or anything worrisome.
The best part I think was the fact that it wasn't bulky and I could store it anywhere without it taking up a ton of space like my other tub. I put a hook up on my door and hung it right there! How convenient and amazing!
All in all, this tub was pretty awesome. It was even nice knowing there was no worry of him drowning like with any other tub. You have to be right there the whole time with my other tub and with this one, I could sit on the toilet to watch him and know that he would be just fine (running water makes me have to go potty what can I say?). Baby can't slip in it or out of it (at least mine can't) and I think it's awesome. I'm going to make this my quick bath or my travel bath because this will fit perfectly in my luggage. I think everyone should try it because I'm pretty sure, if you have a small baby, you will love it. And by the time they grow out of it, you won't need a bathtub, you can just use the regular sink as is or have baby sit in the tub with you. No need to pay $50 for a tub you'll use for 6 months maybe. Check out the Puj Tub for yourself at the new web site exclusively for baby bath tubs!

This is the Puj Tub put together in my sink. My sink is tiny yet the tub still fit



Ignacio sitting in his tub.


Filling the tub up with water


The slots that let the water out so it doesn't overflow


Ignacio content with his tub See how comfortable he is?