Wednesday, October 8, 2008


So I love my parents dearly. My father is an amazing man. It unfortunately took me until I was an adult to realize this and for us to get along well but I'm grateful we are at this point. I love him and am so thankful for him. He continues to help us out when needed and he is constantly spoiling my daughter which is great.
My mother on the other hand. It's like this. If a day goes by and she hasn't caused some sort of drama in my life or angered me in some way, she has failed. And yet I'm the eager puppy. Eager to please her and eager to not anger her and just eager to be the one always sorry for whatever happens. I hate myself some days.....
I can be honest when saying she has never helped me out. I have never in my lifetime received a dime from her but yet have loaned her money many times. The only time she has met her two year old grand daughter is when I had to fly us down there (there being California) to see her when Hannah was 5 months old. She refuses to come up here (Montana) to see us. And now that my daughter's second birthday has come by, it just marks another birthday she has yet to give something to her for. Yay for grandma!!
My being a Christian is super important to me. I have no guts so don't expect me to preach at you or share the word unless you bring it up first. I just am gutless, what can I say? But she can not handle the fact that I believe in God and live my life by the Bible. She insists on e-mailing me these...forwards of hers that have someone else's words on them that point out the mistakes of the Bible and why the Bible is wrong and why God isn't real and blah blah blah.
She tells me to never talk about my faith with her and to never post "trash" on my myspace or send her "trash" as she calls it. But yet she posts these blogs and e-mails that make me cringe and tear up because I am so angry I could shake an ostrich!
My number one life goal: Never, ever, be ANYTHING like my mother. Ever. I pray that while my daughter grows up, I will be her best friend. I will be the one she runs to for help and support because she knows she can. I pray that we will always have a loving bond. And that she will always want me in her life. And that I don't turn out to be a huge disappointment, regret or mistake in her life. I pray that she will one day, pray to be just like me. Which will show me I am nothing like my own mother....Is that terribly awful of me?

E-mail example:::::

"Dear Dr. Laura,

Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I have learned a great deal from your show, and I try to share that knowledge with as many people as I can. When someone tries to defend the homosexual lifestyle, for example, I simply remind him that Leviticus 18:22 clearly states it to be an abomination. End of debate.

I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the specific laws and how to best follow them.

1. When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord (Lev. 1:9). The problem is my neighbors. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them?

2. I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her?

3. I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness (Lev. 15:19-24). The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense.

4. Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

5. I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself?

6. A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an abomination (Lev. 11:10), it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this?

7. Lev. 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here?

8. Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev.19:27. How should they die?

9. I know from Lev. 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

10. My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev. 19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread. (cotton/polyester blend) He also tends to curse and blaspheme alot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? (Lev.24:10-16) Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)

I know you have studied these things extensively, so I am confident you can help.

Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging.

Your devoted disciple and adoring fan..."