A Little Stress To Go With The Good....

It has been forever I know and I apologize. I don't know why I've not been on much. Tons of distractions in such a quiet way of life I suppose. Every time I hop on here, I'm on for exactly 4 minutes and 27 seconds and then something happens to where not all my e-mail gets read and I leave a page up and come back to a husband or father upon the computer in my place. Good luck on getting back on ha ha.
Let's see...Update time...Hannah. Oi vay! My darling daughter whom I love soo much. We are battling right now and it's just loads of fun, ha ha. For some reason she has regressed on her potty training. When we got here she was completely out of diapers, even at night time. Well now all of a sudden (well within a few days ago) she has begun to pee herself and pee the bed at night. Last night she actually didn't pee the bed which I'm excited and so far today, no pee accidents. It's just so odd...And our temper tantrums in public have gotten so bad I refuse to take her out. It's like she used to be this great little girl to take out with me and now if one thing sets her off oh boy howdy watch out! Screaming at the top of our lungs and freaking out. Yeah loads of fun...So I leave her at home and avoid it. But for everything else, she's doing really well. We're working on her colors and shapes right now and she's sort of getting the hang of it. She loves yellow I've learned. I hate yellow, ha ha.
Abel. Well, he's doing well just going crazy out of boredom. He's one of those guys who has to work and be outside and if he isn't doing one or the other than he gets cranky. He hates not working. But he got great news and ended up passing the interview process and now has a physical tomorrow and then an abilities test next week over in Fargo which he'll have no problem with. He basically has the job so he's a bit better to deal with. His last boss had him brainwashed into never using unemployment and they always get laid off during the winter. We'd be broke and barely any food or money and so our parents would begin helping us out for the wintertime. It was hard. Well, we got over here and my dad told Abel he's been paying into unemployment, and to collect from November of 2008 until he gets this job and begins getting a paycheck. We need money and he won't get a paycheck until like March. So Abel put in for it and got accepted and will be receiving unemployment benefits for about a month or two. He hates doing it but when you have no money and no other options...His last boss wasn't a very nice boss at all so I have resentment built up mega load for him and am so glad to be gone from that place. Log building was something Abel loved but he was making so little and never got any benefits or anything so it was a horrible job. We're very blessed to have him getting this railroad job.
Me and baby are doing great which is such a shock! I'm not used to being 10 1/2 weeks along and still no cramps or any troubles. I'm waiting for the ground to fall out under me in a way because I'm scared I'll be at ease with everything and then WAM! when I'm not expecting it you know? But I had an ultrasound last week that showed baby moving around already. Great heartbeat, it was 170 already. And the egg sac was a perfect circle. Which even with Hannah, I never had a baby with a perfect egg sac. It's always been kidney bean shaped. My heart is starting to act up on me, getting all tacchy on me but Dr isn't worried, he said he knows why it is acting this way and he'll be putting me on medication soon. As with the gestational diabetes. I have a few more weeks of eating whatever I want and then I get to begin testing my blood 4 times a day and doing the meal plan. I hate counting carbs...Let's see..Due date is August 20th. I had some issues with the nurses in the hospital here already so I have requested to be induced in Bismarck and deliver there. This hospital sucks and is not equipped to handle any sort of emergency with a baby so that scares me alone. My doctor is awesome and knows exactly what is going on and has dealt with my case thousands of times which put me immediately at ease. I don't regret coming here at all. I'm 10 weeks a 4days so far like I said before. The dreaded 11th week is only 3 more days away. Dr. Lindemann says not to worry he seriously doubts anything will happen. He says that with all my other miscarriages, the fetus had stopped growing at 7 or 8 weeks each time and then I miscarried at 11 weeks, not that the baby died at 11 weeks, that's just when my body discharged the baby. So he said there is no reason to worry. It gives me great relief, let me tell you what! So I thank you all for your prayers. That's exactly what is getting the baby and me through this. Prayer.
I still have morning sickness at night and first thing in the morning. If I eat right away in the morning I'm fine and as long as I eat right before going to sleep I'm usually good too. I began this pregnancy at 160m I'm not scared to report. But I have yet to gain any weight. I'm eating every two hours at least and eating all kinds of junk too and yet nothing. I had that nasty stomach bug and lost 9 pounds so that's why I'm desperate to put on weight. That and I want a huge baby belly! With Hannah, I carried her in the back because my uterus is flopped backwards, so I never showed with her. I got wide but that was it. The day I delivered, I looked like I was maybe 6 months along if that. I'm already showing with this one and I want to get bigger out front and actually carry in the front this time! LoL. I love baby bellies.
And that's pretty much it right now. All caught up. Forgive me for not e-mailing some of you. This is faster and I don't get much time during the day to write. You should hear my mom yell at me, ha ha. Ugh, I turned 24 a few days ago. I don't feel different, just weird. I hate the thought of getting older with nothing to show for it you know? I have yet to do anything wild and crazy! But with Abel getting this job, I told him me and my bestie, Shayla were taking a trip somewhere with no kids or hubbies and we're doing something wild. We're talking about New York. I'm totally excited!
I hope everyone else is doing well. I have 9 more weeks untilw e find out what we're having. I'm hoping for a girl and Abel is hoping for a boy. I'm almost positive we're having a boy. Ugh...LoL. I've dealt with my little girl for 2 1/2 years already! What the crap am I going to do with a penis!?!?! LoL. I've picked out two girl names that now I'm not so sure if I'm still crazy about them or not. Analeigh (pronounced Awna-lee) or Jayleigh. They are totally rare and not out there often but really unique and I like unique but then again, as I'm Jewish and as are my children, they sort of need a name with Hebrew background. I've got plenty of time ahead of me, you will so be hearing thousands of names, haha.
Anyhow, the UPS man just came and dropped off Hannah's new bike. I'm off to go put it together! Yay!! Wish me luck and I shall be on more often! Love to all!!

*Beckie*

Catch-Up!

I have let waaay too much time lapse as I realize that Miss Gucci Mama herself had bestowed a marvelous award for me and here I am slacking and not doing as I should!! So now that I have a few moments before rushing off to do dinner and clean up a HUGE disaster in my room thanks to my lovely two year old (Jealous aren't you?) LoL. I'm going to accept this award and do as it is required to have it. Yay me! Haha. Rules are as follows:
A) First list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep!
B) Pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.

Ten things about me:

1. My most favorite show in the entire world is Friends and I most closely resemble Chandler. I have no clue about the opposite sex, I hardly ever dated and was a idiot when I did, and used my humor as a defense. And all the time, haha. That and he's adorable and hey, so am I. LoL.

2. Right now, my most favorite craving is a big, salty pickle with a tall glass of ice cold chocolate milk. Oh my gosh, it's an orgasm in my mouth!

3. I wish I could play the guitar. I can play a clarinet and am proud of it but you don't ever hear of someone jamming with their friends with a clarinet. LoL.

4. Once I know how to make a person blush, I do it frequently. I don't know why, just that it entertains me. My cousin can't handle female body parts or the word "sex" being said out loud. I say these things frequently in her presence, hehe.

5. One terribly deep dark secret of mine? I used to suck my thumb........Until I was 19 year old...Horrible isn't it? Every so often I get the urge to do it still! It horrifies me. (No I haven't sucked my thumb since but still, haha)

6. I despise socks with holes. When I find a pair of my husband's socks and they have a hole in them, I tear them to pieces so he can't reuse them at all and throw them away. I hate holes in sock...

7. I shout at people when watching TV. They never listen to me though!!If it's a game show I get REALLY vocal, haha. Jeopardy is great to watch as well as Deal Or No Deal. I get it from my dad.

8. One of my life goals is to visit every state in our country. I have to see every state. So far I've made it to 16 of them and this summer will increase that number by three.

9. I don't care for pizza. When we go eat pizza, I have to eat mine with mayonnaise on it. Sounds gross but it is soooo good. It's because I used to work at a place that served a BLT pizza. Best pizza in the whole world!

10. Ummm.....I crave McDonald's dollar cheeseburgers daily. I HATE that place and they are worthless in my opinion but I adore their cheeseburgers.

Ok those were my lame listings. But I did it! LoL. I know I'm to pass this along to a number of blogger friends but Stephanie is friends with those that I'm friends with and got to mine first, haha. So I'm making this for anyone who wants it. Have at it and have fun!

Lovely Doctor

So, I'm in love with my new Ob doctor. LoL. Not like THAT! He is fabulous!! He spent the first 45 minutes of my appointment going over every detail in my medical history. He calmed my nerves about a few issues and told me that the things I had been told by my previous doctor were in correct and he fixed my nerves. I am soo happy to have him!! Then he told me he didn't think I was 6 weeks along and wanted to do an ultrasound. So he wheeled in the ultrasound machine! He does all of his own ultrasounds right there in the office! Talk about awesome. So I got to see my little baby! It was so beautiful. It was all curled up and moving around a little bit which was good to see. I got to see it's heart beating fast and furiously which was awesome. And everything was perfect the Dr said. It was implanted perfectly and for once, the egg sac wasn't mis shaped or anything funky. Although the size of the baby was bigger than 6 weeks. So now he thinks I'm 9 weeks instead of 6. Which kind of sucks because I had two due date buddies and now I'll have none!
I go in to have an ultrasound via the techs at the hospital on Thursday, blood work and another appointment on Tuesday of next week. I'm off of bed rest hooray! He says that bed rest does more wrong than right and in my case, it will only develop lots of blood clot so I need to be on my feet as much as possible. If I cramp and bleed, it won't stop me from doing so, just lessen the flow and everything. So hooray for being emancipated!! LoL. Doctor wants to meet my family and the best part is, he is a Christian and told me to not stop praying. He thinks I'm going to be blessed with another baby and said that he can only do so much and that God takes over the rest. How awesome is that? o finally have a doctor who will admit to God having all the power? Yay!
Abel called after I got home and everything is going ok on that end. He has to stay another night because there were so many people that they couldn't fit in everyone for the interviews today. So his interview is at 8:45 tomorrow morning. He did all his paperwork today and tests too which he feels good with. He just needs a lot of payer tomorrow. He's really nervous.
Ugh, so I'm having some strange and funky cravings. Normally, the only thing weird that goes on is that I like peanut butter when I'm pregnant. Well now I'm craving giant salty pickles with a tall glass of chocolate milk. The idea should make me gag but it only makes me hungry. LoL.
I'm super excited about my appointment and how well it went today. I wanted to do a blog because I know everyone will see it and won't blame me for not writing 200 people about it, LoL. I have time but not THAT much time, haha.
So keep up the prayers everyone, they are working! I have to go update my tickers and everything now and then go watch a movie with Hannah. Then some dinner, yay! Haha.
I hope everyone is doing well and I will update you later! Much later!
*Beckie*

North Dakota

So as I have been without much free time lately, I wanted to let everyone know that our trip went well and we got to North Dakota safe and sound. Great news on the doctor front: I have found a doctor whom I get to meet next week. He is an actual OB-GYN and I hear nothing but fantasticness about. So I have high hopes that he can help me in my issues. I feel wonderful, morning sickness has kicked in and I have a tiny baby pooch beginning to show already. Yay! I look forward to a big belly. Here comes the free time lacking-ness: I made a blog and am lazily copying it into both myspace and here. I hope you'll forgive me for my being lazy but you see, I have an old friend over and haven't finished unpacking yet either. Forgive me my friends but it is long and detailed and I still love you all dearly. So hope you all had a wonderful New Year celebration and that this year is nothing but blessed for you all and I am thinking of all of my friends a lot and hoping you are all doing well. Here's to a new year full of greatness, adventures and friendship!

Well, we made it here safe and sound. We got in last night at about 8:30-ish at night. It took us three days to drive here when it normally takes two days. Well, two days in the summer time, no snow or wind blowing. It wasn't too bad of a drive which was nice.
Tuesday night , I got together with my girlies one last time to play Phase Ten and chit chat and giggle. Halfway through the game I got sick and got to....decorate Clarissa's toilet. I thought, oh great, morning sickness is kicking in, no biggie. So we ended up leaving to go home. But it didn't end. I was up all night throwing up which was awesome, let me tell you what....So Wednesday we took off at about noon and left Libby and headed out. We made it to Glacier pass and was in there for about 5 hours. A semi had gone off the road and they had to stop traffic to pull it back onto the road which took about an hour and then we got stuck behind another accident that was another semi, a school bus and a van. No one was hurt which was a good thing. Just took forever to clean up. After all that we hit a pretty bad weather issue and got to Browning and called it a night. We got a nice motel room and spent New Year's even there. Asleep by 8, haha.
Up and early the next morning and on our way again. We did great driving and made awesome time until we got to one of the Indian reservations and found that they had nothing but black ice sheet on the roads. So we drove 10 miles an hour until we got off the reservation and hit Wolfe Pointe and crashed there. I slept great let me tell you what. I remember that town because they served the largest, cheapest bowl of oyster stew and I have never seen so many oysters in one bowl of soup! It was sooo good too....Anyways, haha.
We hit trouble yesterday as Abel's car died on us as we were driving on the highway but luckily (and thanks to God) a nice pastor and his family pulled up to help us. He towed us to their town Bainsville, dropped me and Hannah and his wife and their two sons off at the restaurant/gas station and him and Abel went off to fix the Honda. We had a good lunch and Hannah got to play with their youngest boy. It was really neat because we found out they used to live in Ronan and know Pastor Kevin from the Assembly Of God church that we had been going to. Abel managed to get a job offer while we were there and the car never got fixed so we dropped my Honda off at Pastor Neil's farm and we'll be going back to pick it up and visit them in the springtime. We loaded up Abel's car behind the U-Haul and kept on going. So it was a blessing in disguise. That and the weather we hit in Williston was horrible and I'd never have been able to drive in it. So I'm glad we got to ride with Abel and the truck.
The trip was a great one. I say that because not only did I forget to pack anything for Hannah to play with, she never once screamed, cried or made a fuss. It makes me amazed because a trip to Kalispell with her and with all of her toys will be unbearable. But a trip here or to California, and she's a saint?? Weird....That and the three days in the car gave me a chance to work with her on her numbers and ABC's. She was fine with the counting, just kept leaving out 9 which we fixed. And she now sings her ABC's all by herself. All of them even the last part of the song. It's super cute and made Abel tear up when she sang to him. Granted not all the letters are perfectly pronounced but I am not worried about that. I adore that she knows her ABC's already. Now we're working on shapes and colors. She also is completely potty trained. I say completely because when we left Libby, she was only day time potty trained. Still wore a diaper at night. Well, I threw her in a diaper just in case you know? Well, she never peed in a single diaper, during the car ride or at night. It got so bad that when we were 20 miles away from here, she was screaming because it hurt to hold her pee any longer, haha. So we had to stop off at a small town bar and let her go in to pee. I was really impressed. So we're calling it quits. She's completely potty trained. Praise God! Haha. Not that night time peeing was a big deal, I just get tired of diapers. Oh goody, so now I have 7 months of a break before starting the diaper thing again...Haha what timing...
So Abel and a few of my dad's buddies got the U-Haul unpacked today. I get to begin putting it away tomorrow. Dad had beds in every room already so we've decided to let Hannah sleep in the full bed that is already in her room rather than deal with getting rid of it (It's only 5 years old) and buying a whole new set. I'm still going to get the bedroom set I want but just a different bed set. She can sleep in a big bed for good now. I put her crib and baby clothes and toy sin the storage room so I can wash everything and have it out of the way for a few more months before needing to set it up. I'm really excited because the baby is going to share our room for a few months and then have it's own room. Hannah will have her own room, we'll have our own room and I'll have my office and craft room. I'm not crammed into a small trailer anymore. It's weird having so much room.
I'm doing well during all of this. Thanks to my stomach bug I lost 8 pounds which normally would be awesome but I need to be gaining not losing. That and I got hit with morning sickness this morning that didn't go away from 9 until 2. This is early for me. I'm 5 weeks now so it's a great sign. I feel good and no worries. I have a feeling this one will work out and in 9 months I'll have another little Guerra running around. It's called Faith. I have it, haha.
So anyways, I better get off of here and go digging around for something to eat. I'm starving now! Imagine that! So I miss everyone already and hope everything is going well. I have 16 more days until I turn 24! Ech! LoL. I almost didn't know how old I am, I had to stop and figure it out in my head. Why is it so hard to remember how old I am?? LoL.
I'll get on another time and keep up the updates and as soon as I get my new camera, I'll post some pictures.Lots of love to everyone!!

There you have it! Hope that is okay for now and I will update later. Love to you all!
*Beckie*