Friday, July 9, 2010

Update in my lonely corner.

So this will probably be one of the rare moments where I actually blog anymore. I don't feel like I have the time to read everyone's blogs as I used to what with my new job and running after my kiddos and playing out side and such. I have one day where I play catch up and read everyone blogs that I follow but I don't usually leave comments anymore because mine seem so lost in the millions of others or it has been too late or I just don't feel like it I suppose.
Life is life over on my side. I lost a friend of mine who I used to be super tight with. She had issues that I found out via her husband telling my husband and now I feel a little used and abused so I have cut myself off from everyone. When I was in Montana what I considered "friends" were just a circle of people there to criticize and talk about me behind my back and who were there mainly so my husband could play with their husbands. (PS when I say play, I mean do guy thinsg such as work on cars and play golf) It would have been odd for him to show up and all the lame group functions alone right? Good wife I am I suppose...Plus I had no one else so it was convienant I guess. I mean in the begining I really was close with some of the ladies and then towards teh end drama and other people got in teh way annnnnnd....I'm lame because I'm too shy and closed off to make new friends so I whine in my pity corner. Don't mind me :) So now I have closed myself off due to lack of trust and distance and a tad bit of butt-hurtness and pretty much have realized that I've almost lost everyone along the way. But as much as I should grieve about that it's almost normal. I've only ever had one or two friends and I think I enjoy it that way. I don't like phones or distance and dometimes that can get in the way...Well alot of times actually.
I've gotten a lot of weight off my life however. My mother disowned me for not sharing my father's inheritance with her. She somehow thinks she deserved a chunk or something. She wanted to move to Boise and expected me to help her with it. I stood up and told her no for once in my life and voila! The witch is gone! I still swear God took the wrong parent however but whatever. So now I haveless stress in my life and when someone snarks at me again for spoiling my kids or spending too much on them, I get to retort back with a "Someone has to do it!"
I get tired of people judging me because I tend to overspend on my kids...I get tired of people judging me based on the fact that I spend money at all....
We bought a house. Are buying, whatever. A beautiful house, my dream house, which sits on five beautiful acres with a bueatiful creek running behind it. It's in Libby, Montana and huge. Abel helped build it about 4 years ago so we know it inside and out. And my favorite part (aside from the big kitchen and island in it) is the fact that it has a deck outside of not only the back door but what will be our room upstairs. I dream of sitting outside with hot cocoa and watching the sun set while the water is flowing. And five acres means animals. Tons of animals and a few horses. We've gotten our blessing and will never look for anything else. Praise God! This does not mean we will be moving anytime soon however. We know the people who are selling it very well so they are allowing us to rent to own and from over here. We plan on maybe two years moving over there finally. We want to have a good chunk of money down before taking off.
The kids are faring well. Hannah is going through a rebelling and stubborn streak which some days has me pulling out my hair. Other days she can be sweet as can be and so well behaved. I swear i should have had all boys, LoL. Ignacio is doing well. Pulling himself up on everything and walking along all the furniture for awhile now. Still only 4 teeth and not in a hurry to walk. At all. Sucker hauls butt when he crawls though, it's great.
Abel is working like crazy on the railroad. They kicked into busy season and should be busy for the rest of the summer and well into harvest season. No layoffs this year yay! We are looking forward to next month when the new hires are no longer students and are actual conductors. Abel will not be last man on the totem pole anymore, yay! I hate seniority sometimes...He gets stuck with all the caca jobs being last man.
And I have a job. Just a little dinky one working at our downtown gas station food area. Fixing food. I'm really good with people and customers so it does me well. I had to get it in order for Hannah to be in Head Start this year. So I did it. I'm lazy and don't want to work though mind you. But the work is so menial and there isn't much to do so it's easy enough to not complain about haha. And it's okay money considering where we are and all. With the new house, it's a good thing I got the job, every bit helps right??
I started a new diet. Sort of. The month after I had Ignacio I planned on losing 80 pounds. Half of that was baby weight and half of that was what I had on me pre-baby. I lost my baby weight 4 months after I had him. I've been trying ever since to lose the rest with no luck. So I got on diet pills with my Dr's okay. So I got OxyElite Pro from GNC. And oh my goodness! Amazing! They give me energy which I never have and so far in 4 days I've already lost 7 pounds. I've been walking everywhere and doing a lot of outside work too so that helps. I'm excited because I have dropped one pants size as well! That's more of what i want. Inches gone more so than weight but hey if I'm losing weight, I won't complain! So wish me luck on this new adventure. I have a wedding coming up for a friend and I don't want to be the overweight bridesmaid who barely fits her dress you know...
And that is about it. I get to begin the process of putting together my kid's swingset we bought them which looks intimidating and a definite time consuming job for sure. And I'm going to go see if I have enough time to write some e-mails to some family members I've been neglecting and to some friends as well. If I have time...
I hope and pray all you are doing wonderful with no trouble at this time. And soon I hope to overcome my little gray cloud here and come back into the world again. For now this is what you get and if you miss me, I'm on facebook or you can email me and I will get back to you. I have a new resolution and who cares if it's July? LoL>
Until next time!

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