It's Friday!

Ahh I was going to attempt a Fragment Friday but I think I will procrastinate and do that next week...Maybe...
I did though want to share some photos with you all. I have more coming but these are my favorites so far. The belly photos haven't done much justice as they make my belly look cute but not really show off my fat ass enough and we all know that everyone needs to see how big I've gotten. I need a wide load sign and some beep-beep noises, LoL. My thighs and hips aren't my friends right now....The last photos of the family of 3 :( The next set of pictures you'll see is of a family of 4, awww.
I hope everyone has a fantastic weekend, mine is going to be busy thankfully. And I shall jabber a new blog on a different day! Enjoy!!
*Beckie*


~~Hannah~Bug~~



~~Family shot with attitude~~



~~Always wanted a photo like this~~



~~One more family shot~~



~~And my favorite ever~~

4 Signs Of Labor....

• It suddenly looks like somebody coughed up a big loogie into your undies.

• Your lower back feels like someone is pressing gently on it with a jackhammer.

• The movie version of your underwear would be called A River Runs Through It.

• You have a sudden desire to clean the house despite being doubled over in pain from contractions.

Completely Random.

And for once, I'm not being sarcastic. Today my hormones have put me in a mushy and ecstatic sort of mood. Abel left last night to drive to Portal, Canada to stay over night and then pick up a train and drive it back here to homebase. So after he left I set my restaurant up and went to do two loads of dishes (Thank you a billion times a billion to whoever invented the dishwasher!!) And did my laundry. Then I actually sat down and folded and put it away as I watched Mama Mia (Fabulous movie btw! One of my faves) That in itself is shocking but just the fact that I was nesting was driving me insane. How do I know I was nesting and not just bored? I lugged Hannah's kitchen set up to her room and then set to cleaning and organizing that mess as well. Then I balanced my check-book, figured out what bills are going to get paid on payday in a few days (loving my budget!) and then laid in bed reading my book until I fell asleep. I only woke up twice to pee last night which is great minus the pain of getting up and laying down. Literal pain. My pelvis area hurts so much anymore. It only hurts when I go to sleep laying down. When I'm up and moving around it's fine. So I'm very much so looking forward to the 19th which is in exactly 3 weeks mind you. Oh and an even better surprise for today? I won that Zapi from Shauna's giveaway blog! Yay!! No more germies. Ugh I hate germs. I switch my toothbrush out to a brand new one if it even falls on the floor. I realize that while I may kiss my husband and daughter and yes while my daughter did come from my own body, if they put my brush in their grubby mouths, it's gone. Just can not do that. And my last bit of greatness came form paypal. I've been ordering clothes on myspace as I'm finding baby clothes for $1 a piece and they are in brand new condition. It's like a virtual garage sale for me and it really helps save a few pennies. Well I fell in love with an outfit and have been battling this lady for two months. I paid and she never sent so i filed a claim with paypal and was awarded my money today. Yay! Well as I didn't have bassinet sheets yet and was stressing on that, I got to go and buy 2 blue sheets and am now feeling pretty good about it. There's still a few odds and ends I need before this kid comes out in a few weeks but I have a feeling I'll be fine. Oh and I've decided to not paragraph my blog today. Leave one thing messy for once. Everything else in this house is clean and organized why bother with this?? LoL. piece of randomness for you. I haven't worn a bra in two days. I feel like such a rebel. Might as well enjoy the last remaining freedom these ladies will see for a few months. Haha! I bought a baby bottle the other day. A soothie one. I love the soothie brand. And I'd love to sit here and say ok we're going to breastfeed this kid no matter what and do it right this time but secretly I bought this bottle as a just in case thing. In case I dry up again. In case it doesn't work. In case I change my mind sort of thing. My mother gave me sooo much grief over it but oh well. I pretty much don't care. LoL. I love those sort of days. I found out my best friend from Nebraska is pregnant again. She and her hubby have been trying for over a year to get pregnant and have ended up with 3 miscarriages so far. They are my kids' god-parents and we've been besties since forever. And I've been through the same thing as her so when she gets pregnant it feels like I am too. So I've been praying this time it sticks and works out and they get to have a baby soon. It was hard going through my own miscarriages but to watch my best friend go through it and not be able to take away the pain? It's so hard! And why is it that when it happens, even though I've been there, I never know what to say? I get so mad and tell myself that I should know what to say to help. I should be able to say something comforting...Oh dear my daughter is singing along to the Kidz Bop commercials...Hannah came down with the flu the other day. She's been taught to throw up in the potty as mommy can't handle puke without losing it herself. I'm proud of her for being able to do that. She threw up once and then was totally fine minus the not eating for two days straight and the constant fever. Now I pray I don't get it because I always end up with the worst case of it ever and am miserable enough without the flu. Abel has only 12 more days until layoff time! Soo nervous about that. I hope they hire everyone back fast so he can get back on quickly. I have gotten used to paychecks again and it's so nice to pay my bills for once. My bill collectors are being so nice and haven't called me in over a month! I don't know whether to feel abandoned or relieved? Well anyways, I need to go fold another load of laundry and attempt to sort some socks now. Watching 27 Dresses today. Decent movie...So I hope everyone's day is going well too. Excuse my random babble here. Love to everyone!!

*Beckie*

Yup, I'ma Bad American!

So my dad, the ever so wonderful addict of forwarding e-mails even though we live in the same house, has once again sent an interesting e-mail to me. Not only did I find it humorous in some areas, but I also found some of it true. Most of all I thought that instead of forwarding it and adding to the tearing down of virtual trees, I'd just post it and let the world (or rather my small community of followers) check it out. What can I say? Not enough to occupy my day...LoL. You'll see that I added in notes. This is how I think when I read stuff. I always add in notes in my head or narrate in some odd way. I'm odd. I hope you love me still after you find out just how odd I really am...
Oh and by the way, a HUGE Happy Birthday goes out to miss Tiney! I can't figure out how to comment on your blog, hence me being absent with my comments for awhile so hopefully this will be just as good!
And please remember when reading this, I don't ride nor own nor care for Harley Davidson motorcycles, LoL. This was obviously written by a man but with notes thrown in by me.



I Am the Liberal-Progressives Worst Nightmare.
(Can't even begin to tell you what this means so now you all know how politically ignorant I am)

I am an American.
(Pretty much, yep)

I am a Master Mason and believe in God.
(I don't think I am and yes)

I ride Harley Davidson Motorcycles and believe in American products.
(No I don't. I don't even sit on those 2-wheeled nightmares!)

I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some Liberal governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican!
(Yeah so someone tell that damn FICA guy to keep his grubby hands off my money!)

I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way!
(And yet people say I'm bitchy or emotional because of this...)

I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American.
(Unless you have pretty daughters, then you could easily turn into a killer)

I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything. Get over it!
(Yeah I can say that if you feel "owed" anything, you pretty much suck. Unless you're talking about those tax returns in which NO ONE ever gets back what they are owed)

I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, do it in English.
(Please don't limit this to just hamburgers. Grocery stores. Gas stations. Video rental stores. Applebees. Thanks)

I believe everyone has a right to pray to his or her God when and where they want to.
(For sure)

My heroes are John Wayne, Babe Ruth, Roy Rogers, and Willie G. Davidson that makes the Awesome Harley Davidson Motorcycles.
(Can't do without that famous swagger, a baseball, the drink or a two-wheeled nightmare can we?)

I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.
(I do. And I don't. Unless you were a victim of the layoffs and then treated worse than the druggies and lazies who've lived off welfare all their lives just because they are lazy. I don't pity them but rather growl and slash out at them. Hence why I'm housebound. Sometimes I'm not allowed outside...)

I know wrestling is fake and I don't waste my time watching or arguing about it.
(It's just as bad as soap operas...)

I've never owned a slave, or was a slave, I haven't burned any witches or been persecuted by the Turks and neither have you! So, shut up already.
(Yes please. Oh and don't mind the midget Ethiopians in my basement. They err, enjoy making those sweaters and never sleeping or eating...)

I believe if you don't like the way things are here, go back to where you came from and change your own country!
(I would but I don't know where I come from. Is Montana it's own country yet?)

This is AMERICA! We like it the way it is!
(Some days...)

If you were born here and don't like it you are free to move to any Socialist country that will have you.
(Fine then! Wait, socialist whatta?)

I want to know which church is it exactly where the Reverend Jesse Jackson preaches, where he gets his money, and why he is always part of the problem and not the solution.
(Yeaaah...How DOES he do that?!?)

I also think the cops have the right to pull you over if you're breaking the law, regardless of what color you are.
(I just wish they would quit targeting me. Dirty goyim...)

And, no, I don't mind having my face shown on my drivers license.
(Actually....)

And I'm proud that 'God' is written on my money.
(Yes actually I am)

I think if you are too stupid to know how a ballot works, I don't want you deciding who should be running the most powerful nation in the world for the next four years.
(Hah! I'm the moron who voted for the other guy and then did eeny meeny miney moe for the rest of the subjects. I had no clue who everyone was. Like I said before, I'm politically ignorant. And really, does my ONE vote matter THAT much?)

I dislike those people standing in the intersections trying to sell me stuff or trying to guilt me into making 'donations' to their cause. Get a job and do your part!
(They don't sell stuff in my street. They e-mail me or call me...)

I believe that it doesn't take a village to raise a child, it takes two parents.
(Thank goodness for that, some parents terrify me and if my kid is going to get messed up, I'd like all the blame to go to me)

I believe 'illegal' is illegal no matter what the lawyers think.
(Unless you claim to be insane and can talk to yourself cleverly then they let you go)

I believe the American flag should be the only one allowed in AMERICA!
(Oops! Better take down my communist pride flag....)

If this makes me a BAD American, then yes, I'm a BAD American.
(I'm a horrid American with no intellect)

Weeeeellll.......

A HUGE thank you shout out right now to Miss Gucci Mama! (Stephanie) I got a long letter a few days ago telling everything she had gone through with both babies' births which were c-sections. I got pros cons and the absolute nitty gritty truth. I'm one of those people who needs to know beforehand exactly what is going to happen. I need to be prepared. Which can be a bad thing and make me freak out but it's a risk I'm always willing to take. At least I know what will happen.
So I once again ventured out to the doctor's office today for my weekly appointment. My morning had been shot to hell already so why not take a trip there as well? LoL. I woke up to a cranky little girl. I blew her off, put on Dora and Diego and let her sit and watch cartoons for a bit. She told me she was hungry which was great as she hasn't eaten anything since breakfast yesterday morning. So I made us both cheesy eggs and when I had to fight her for 20 minutes because she refused to eat it made me angry. I worry about her not eating and then stress because I HATE throwing food out. So I told her that's what she'd eat for lunch and threw it in the fridge. Grumpy as all get up I went upstairs to get dressed and all of a sudden I hear my dad hollering at me to get downstairs so I threw on a random shirt and ran down to see what was going on and here my baby girl is puking up orange juice and crying. She didn't quite make it to the potty (I taught her early that mommy doesn't do puke at all and we do it in the potty so mommy doesn't have to clean it or see it). So I felt like bawling because I felt so bad and I cuddled her and gave her some seven up and made her a cute little bed on the couch for her to lay down. Secretly I love when she doesn't feel good because she wants me to cuddle her and rub her feet so it's pretty much Heaven for me. But during all of this my guilty conscience was screaming YOU'RE A HORRID MOTHER!! This would explain why she didn't want to eat...I feel so bad so she'll be pampered today and eat up every minute of it, LoL.
Meanwhile at the doctor's office I find out that yes Ignacio is being a stubborn brat and won't turn. He had turned on Saturday but went right back yesterday. But we talked about the c-section and I have only a teensy bit of nervousness left. I got my fears calmed down and my worries and wants out and acknowledged. I have a Soothie bottle that I bought a few days ago as I'm a lover of soothies and I told Dr that I don't want ANY bottles given to Nacio. When I had Hannah they ignored my anti-bottle wishes and fed her out of a bottle anyways and caused our issues with breastfeeding and the ever wonderful nipple confusion. I don't want to deal with that again...And I also requested baby be with me as soon as my tummy is closed up and come to find out my Dr is a big advocate of having baby with mommy as soon as the last stitch is in place. Sweet! So this is turning out to be a better deal than I thought. Oh and yes, the flu is going around. Greeeeat....
So all in all, today was a good day. I didn't get told that Nacio was flipped right but you know what? Hannah's birth being 2 hours long was a complete fluke thanks to being induced. That won't happen this time and so having the c-section guarantees me a half hour birth and no pain. Can't get much better than that right?? I plan on videotaping (sorry not talented enough to post that nor do I want vomiting to be my fault) But I do plan on putting up photos just because I'm one of those freaks who thinks photos of births are beautiful. But I'm totally excited for this! 3 1/2 more weeks! @3 more days... Now if I can only get off my duff and get the rest of the baby stuff, we'd be all good. LoL.
So there's my baby update. I'm feeling the heat already and should go throw my dishes in the dishwasher before I pass out from being sleepy. I'm spacing out at the wall as well so it's time to meander in do my dish thang and go lay down. Hannah is sleeping I might as well too, haha. I hope you all are having a nice week so far. No flu or anything icky like that. And I shall blog another update....Well when there is something more to blog about, LoL. Until then,
Toodles!!

Zapi!!!

http://www.trying2staycalm.com/2009/07/violight-review-and-giveaway.html

What is that you ask? Well besides me trying to score 3 extra entries for this fabulous giveaway, it's a link to a blog that has fabulous giveaways! This specific link is for a free Zapi. What is that you ask??

"It's the perfect accessory for your bathroom. Zapi comes in white, blue, green, and orange to match your personal style, and INCLUDES a matching toothbrush. Just like the other products, the Zapi uses germicidal UV light to eliminate germs in just minutes. Works with most manual toothbrushes and electric heads."

Read the review and comment and follow and maybe even post a link about it and Shauna will give you many entries in order to possibly win this. And while you are there, check out her other giveaways! Shauna has the best giveaways and best of all, they're free!! So head on over!!

*Beckie*

Update Time.

So where shall I begin? A few days shy of 36 weeks pregnant I am. I had my weekly doctor's appointment today. They bumped me up to weekly appointments now, yay me. That was last week that they did that. We did an ultrasound last week and found out that baby Ignacio was still breech. So I was handed some positions and exercises to do in order to get him to possibly move and flip. They didn't work. I went in today hoping they had worked but they didn't. So today we did the ultrasound to see if he was breech-he is. And then we sat down and picked out a date for the c-section. I walked out with mixed emotions with it. I don't want a c-section but I know it has to be done and shockingly there are some advantages to having it done. Like now there's no shot of Abel missing his son coming into the world. He gets to call his boss and say okay this is what is happening and when and he'll get the days off whereas before it was just a guessing game. And then there will be the fact that now I'll be getting my tubes tied. Might as well since they are down there anyways. Abel was going to get snipped but I know that he'll do nothing but procrastinate about that one so I'm glad to just get this done and over with. And of course the time of it will be much shorter this way versus if I had the vaginal birth. A half hour versus 10 hours or something like that. Much faster. And of course just knowing the date that he will be here instead of wondering and wondering. So it isn't all too bad I guess. I'm just freaked out about the epidural and those side effects and any medications used in the whole process and of course my anxiety. So I'm working on that now while I still have time :) Remain calm, breath. That'll be my mantra. It's going to be so interesting though. A little saddening as Amity and I were trying to have our boys on the same day. Now we won't be able to :( If only her hippie doctor would tell her that she's farther along than they all thought and how oops! She'd have to have a planned birth on the 19th as well. LoL. No shot huh?
On a brighter note I'm stocking up on the baby stuff now. Got a few weeks left and hurrying up trying to make sure I'm all stocked up. Things like the toys and play yards and mats and such I'm holding off on. Those can wait. But I ordered my first case of diapers a few days ago and am going to be buying the case of wipes as well. And I actually need a few more outfits and sleepers and then some blankets and of course the sexy nursing pads. I don't know about you but those make me feel my sexiest ;) I have my whole list that I'm running through getting everything. So much fun let me tell you what.
Aside from that nothing else to report. The husband is away for the week again. His last one thankfully. Then he can be home again. Drag my fat butt up the freaking stairs. I'm so disgusted with myself. I gained 25 pounds with Hannah. Loved it too! I bragged about it all the time. This kid has made me gain double that and I am totally feeling it. Never mind that my legs are swollen 24/7 and look enormous. My skin is shiny which is weird and my thighs look like cottage cheese as well. Ugh my body. I get to look forward to losing 65 pounds at the least after all this. Wowzers...Okay mom I won't belittle you anymore for how much you gained and never lost. Just the thought of trying to lose weight again is making me ache. Least favorite part of pregnancy however? The fact that I don't pee all day and the moment I get into bed, my bladder turns into a colicky newborn. Up every hour telling me to deal with it or else. So I get to go down the stairs and stumble into the bathroom to pee a few droplets and then climb my fat butt back up the stairs and try to catch my breath and get back into a position I feel good in. Oh joy...One of the nurses today made me wonder if she was a liar or just really nice. She told me I didn't look like I was due for another few months. Bless your soul love! I feel like a waddling whale mind you but that picked my spirits up a wee bit. Oh yes, the waddle. Bless my hips and ligaments for the joyful waddle. My father is lucky I allowed him to live past his not-so-humorous comment this morning of "Love the waddle Donald" dirty heathen....
Ahh anyways, enough of my complaining. It is sorta humorous to me some of it actually. Some moments. Now I get to run off and do some laundry and play with this gorgeous little man in my house. I get to babysit for a friend of mine for her adorable and chubby 4 month old baby boy. Hannah has been nothing but loving on him so it gives us a tiny glimpse of our new one coming. So I hope everyone has a fabulous day/week. I'm stalking everyone's blogs for something good to read. I have nothing to do anymore :( Sadness... LoL. So much thanks and loves to everyone!

*Beckie*

I Feel Like A Girl Again!

Yay for haircuts! Well, despite the fact that I spent too much money on doing my hair and eyebrows, I feel like a girl again! It was so nice yesterday. I haven't had anything done to my hair for over a year if you don't count me doing my own color-from-a-box thing. So I went in, got 4 inches hacked off of my jungle length hair (would have loved to do something drastic with it but then I'd have no hubby to come home to) And then we threw in highlites and shaped my eyebrows finally. There really should be 2, not one from what I understand. Minus sitting under the hairdryer thingy, I had a great time. My favorite part about the whole thing was getting my hair washed. I loooove having someone else wash my hair. It's the fact that I can close my eyes and enjoy the 15 minutes of someone massaging and scratching my scalp. LOVE IT! So now I look like I did back in high school, I have bangs again and I haven't decided if I like them or not. I have maternity photos to be taken tomorrow so I wanted to look new and different.
After the 2 hour hair appointment, I met up with my friend Cassandra and we took off for Minot to go see Harry Potter & the Half-Blood Prince. I am a fan of Harry's, ha ha. I wouldn't recommend seeing the movie after reading the book because you end up walking out of it disappointed about how much they changed and missed. But it was a good movie if you don't compare it to the book. 2 1/2 hour long movie, could you imagine how long these movies would be if they included everything in the book?!?!? So now I'm excited to see the next two movies (They are splitting the last book into 2 movies) and yet am going to have to calm down for the next two years before it comes out. I hate that....
I am feeling pretty accomplished, I, with the help of dad made that budge I talked about in my last blog? Well payday was two days ago and it feels good to sit down, write out checks and pay bills and then even have a little bit left after all is said and done. It's the first time I've done this and paying all the bills that are needed to be paid and even catching up on some past bills, it feels pretty good. I had to send in mine and Hannah's birth certificates and my marriage license to Abel's insurance company. I sent in a strongly worded letter along with an already self addressed envelope asking them to send all papers back to me. I'm so not going through the crap of getting new ones from Montana. As it is I have to replace my Montana's driver's license so I can get my North Dakota one and I have to replace Hannah's SS card. I get tired of the you need two forms of ID in order to get this paper thing, even though I understand it's for my protection. I'm hoping they are quick on kicking on my insurance. This kid is coming out in 5 weeks and I'm not looking forward to fainting at that bill. I'm STILL paying for Hannah's delivery almost 3 years ago!
So today I'm catching up on every piece of laundry, gunna go run to the grocery store, and get this place picked up so that when Abel gets home at 4 am, it won't make him too cranky, ha ha. I'm including some lovely photos to show you before and after of the new 'do. It isn't anything drastic mind you but it feels like a ton of hair is gone and I'm loving the color whereas before, it was blah brown. I'll take a frontal shot next week when it's time for the bi-monthly belly shoot :)
Hope everyone is having a great week, and have a even better weekend!! More to blog another day!

*Beckie*

~*~*~BEFORE~*~*~



~*~*~AFTER~*~*~

I decided To Play Along, Won't You?

I Borrowed this from Green-Eyed Momster & Sassy Pants Freckle Face.
Here are the rules:
1. Respond and rework; answer the questions on your blog, replace one question that you dislike with a question of your invention, add one more question of your own. (I didn't replace any questions. I think they're all great!)

2. Tag other people. Sounds simple enough, right?


*What is your current obsession?
~~Restaurant City on Facebook, grrr...

*What are you wearing today?
~~Black shorts and a t-shirt. I'm lucky if I even dress anymore.

*What’s for dinner?
~~It's steak night at the Eagles. Enough said.

*What would you eat for your last meal?
~~Mmm...EVERYTHING! Lobster and steak of course, steamed asparagus with lots of creamy butter, Tomato bisque soup, some salad, and for dessert, the biggest chunk of raspberry cheesecake. We're talking the WHOLE pie mind you. I'd like some root beer throughout the meal too. Now I'm drooling....

*What are you listening to right now?
~~My daughter copying what The Incredibles are saying on their movie. She gets that from me...

*Which language do you want to learn?
~~Spanish

*What do you love most about where you currently live?
~~That it's small and away from everyone we knew from home. If you don't know many people, you can't get sucked up in the drama, haha.

*What style is your current home decorated in?
~~It's not. I'm slacking on the whole decorating thing.

*If you were a time traveler what era would you live in?
~~Oooh the 50's! I love that era in time and sooo wish I'd have lived back then.

*What is your favorite color?
~~Pink or purple

*What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own wardrobe?
~~My maternity pants from Stephanie, the brown ones. They are the most comfortable and cutest things ever!

*What were you doing ten years ago?
~~Going to school and being a pesky teenager.

*If you had $300 now, what would you spend it on?
~~That much money that wouldn't have to go to bills or the husband or kids? I'd probably put it away honestly. I'm too pregnant to go clothes shopping but I'd hold onto it for when I do lose weight so I can go on a clothing spree.

*When was the last time you cried?
~~It's been awhile truthfully. Unless you count the times when I tear up, that happens all the time.

*What are your favorite films?
~~The Princess Bride for sure!

*Your favorite books?
~~There are so many, I hate to narrow it down to just a few.

*Do you collect anything?
~~LoL sadly no. I did the whole state quarters thing, I'm THAT cool. But no I don't honestly.

*What makes you follow a blog?
~~I have to enjoy what they write about or I have to enjoy the writer themselves.

*What was the most enjoyable thing you did today?
~~I was sleeping...LoL. Does that count?

*Ann's Question: What makes you comment on a blog?
~~I try to comment every blog no matter what. It's nice to hear from your readers and always nice to have comments waiting for you :)

*Amy's Question: What is your favorite thing to do when you have some free time?
~~I read, sleep or weed.

*Annissa's Question: As you know I homeschool -- If you could would you? Do you agree with homeschooling?
~~If I could, as in have the smarts, the time, the energy, maybe I would homeschool but it definitely isn't for me. I agree with homeschooling only if the parents are truly teaching their children. Parents who claim their kids are being schooled at home and yet don't know how to read at the age of 10 (Yes I've met those kind of families) I don't think should be allowed to homeschool.

*Tonya's Question: What is a talent you wished you had?
~~I wish I could draw, that would be awesome.

*Kyooty's Question: If you could be any other animal other then Human, what would you be?
~~Hmm...Probably a cat. They seem to have the perfect life

*Carrin's Question: Rush just told me that by 2042, white people will be the minority. Do you believe that? Would that be a big deal to you?
~~Oh definitely. I wouldn't care though. I think there are other things more important to worry about (Not a huge fan of Rush here can you tell?)

*Melissa's Question: Would you want your blog to be as popular as Dooce? What would be some of the pros and cons?
~~I don't have a clue who Dooce is. I think it'd be great to have a blog followed by as many people such as Stephanie (Gucci Mama) but I'm a follower of people who have as many as 500 people on there and that would suck because there's no way you could be personal with any of your followers. My small amount of followers allow me actual friendships and that's my favorite part!

*Unknown Mami's Question: What do you admire most about yourself? Don't be modest.
~~The fact that I have changed into such a better person than who I was 5 years ago. And I admire my family and how blessed I am. If I wasn't me, I'd be jealous of me, haha.

*Green-Eyed Momster: If you could be anyone else, who would you be?
~~For kicks and giggles I'd love to be Angelina Jolie. Not for her hubby or anything like that but because of how great of an influence she is and everything she gets to do. I'd eat like a pig if I were her just because I know she could afford my food tastes, haha.

*Sassy Pants Freckle Face: How do you think you have changed the world?
~~I haven't, sad isn't it? I'm not concerned with the world, just my family and friends.

*Beckie's question: Out of every toy in the world, which was your very favorite as a child and why?


(Oh and it's no fun tagging, just take this and do it because you are THAT cool!)

Bucketlists, books, and fatness.

So a few days ago a wonderful bloggy friend of mine posted a Bucket/Birthday List and it got me thinking as well. ( http://greeneyedmama.blogspot.com/2009/07/bucketbirthday-list.html ) --> That's my poor attempt at linking the blog, haha....I'm not one for lists and have never once sat down and made a list of the things I'd love to do before I die. I think it's because I'd always be adding thing to it and maybe even removing, my mind is never made up fully on any one subject. That and I have no patience to sit down and actually make one. But today with her current blog about bills and credit and such, it made me think. Number one on my list would have to be, get every single bill paid off. I don't care much for my credit report as I don't use that much and face it, no one in this world has perfect credit anymore. And like I told her, my creditors are lucky I even bother paying them, haha. But I would love if one day soon, I could open up my folder with all my bills and collection papers and such and find that all of them are gone!
Abel's job is the best he's ever had and he's making a good amount of money. We're not rich mind you, not in any way shape or form but to us, this is rich when compared to what he had been making in his last job. When we were back in Libby and barely surviving, our bills never got paid. The phone, electricity, water and all that did mind you but everything else? Got scooped up into a pile and thrown away. We didn't care at that point. When we moved here New Year's Day I made a resolution to start fresh and by paying off all of our debt. Needless to say, that went out the window like a new diet. Three days ago when I went to pull money out of our account and found out that my husband has trashed our account by overdrawing (thank God our bank doesn't charge us overdraft fees!) I sat down with my dad who not only is the cheapest man on Earth, also was an accountant back in his working days. Not only did I get a very looooong drawn out speech about money and credit and finances and blah blah blah (I obviously was paying attention can you tell?) he helped me make out a simple budget. Then showed me how much money would be left each payday after bills and it made me gasp! I can not believe how much money we are wasting. I say we even though I'm gritting my teeth and thinking of husband. HE has debit card and he has the check book and is not keeping track of our money like he said he would but alas, I said for better and worse and I'll put equal blame onto myself...
So I feel good now that starting next month, we will be paying bills off once again. I look forward to the relief of one bill being all paid off and then starting to pay on another. At the end of this year hopefully a few bills will be completely done with. And maybe, at the end of next year we will have all of our bills paid off and done with. That is my goal. My "bucket list". Well part of it that is.
We won't go into the full bucket list which would have to include a sleepover with Johnny Depp and other various wants...Hehehe. So in other news, after Hannah fell asleep I made a run to the library to pick up some books. I've been reading more and as I need to pass the next few weeks quickly (face it I want this kid out now!) the library has been my good friend. It's the place where mommy can go alone and have some quiet time. Luckily I've hit it when there's been no one there so I don't have to deal with people. The librarian knows me back from high school so she knows to grab my attention when I first walk in and then after a few minutes of chit-chat to let me get down to business. I'm one of those people you find sitting on the floor reading the first few pages of a book to see if I like it. It's nice. So I grabbed a few books and a few free murder mystery magazines like Ellery Queen and even a few Women's Day and then came home feeling all happy with myself. I realized that it's almost the day of fat belly picture time and took a few quick photos of the belly to play with and then post tomorrow.
If you aren't already a follower you must go visit my good friend Amity, she's quite the sassy writer and is also my preggie buddy. ( http://sassypantsfreckleface.blogspot.com/ ) We are due around the same time and therefore have agreed to post belly photos at the same time. So i took mine and realized that I am now bigger now with this child than I was on the day I delivered Hannah. And yet I'm only 5 pounds heavier with this one than I was on Hannah's birth day. Weird... I've been toying with the idea of whether or not to have my tubes tied at the same time. Husband and I have agreed that we are finished having babies. We have one of each and I have gone through so much emotional and physical stress for these babies that it would be wise to be done. We plan on later in the future adopting but until then, someone is getting fixed. Originally I put my feet down, yes both of them, and told him he was getting snipped. easier, faster, less pain and face it, I carried babies for 18 months total and delivered them, he could do this little bit. But now I'm beginning to wonder if it would be wiser if I just had it all done while I'm in there and get it over with. Abel would procrastinate and it would never get done I'm thinking. Has anyone had their tubes tied? What do you think?
Anyways, I have a few e-mails to rush off and I need to stalk Fed-Ex and get them here to pick up a box. I hope everyone is having a great day. Can you tell I'm trying to be better at my blogging? LoL. I apologize for it being random and not very interesting...Anyways, visit my bloggy friends, you won't regret it and until next time!

*Beckie*

Crabby Lady

You know, for getting so much done today and having so much good stuff happening in the past few days, you'd think I wouldn't have a bad mood at all. I mean, the 4th of July is upon us almost and here I am crabby as all get up. Ugh. Must be the hormones...
So one reason for said crabbiness?? My mother. I don't know why when she says something or tells me she's going to do something, I always follow her around like a lost puppy dog believing her every word thinking that maybe, just maybe this time will be different. Why would it change now when all my life I've been last place on her list of priorities and been let down every time she's said she'd do something? Because I'm an idiot. She told me since she found out I was pregnant that she'd fly up here to be with me and meet the baby and visit Hannah. PROMISED! I got excited. Why? Because since my daughter was born, my mother has met her once. And that was when she was 5 months old. For a week. That's it. I had to go down to her to even make this happen mind you. When Hannah was born, my mother-in-law (God bless her soul!) pawned stuff to be up with us for two weeks. Talk about love. My in-laws don't have a lot of money but they do everything they can to be with us or to get us down there to visit. For as many trips as we've made to California to see the in-laws, they've made the exact same to see us. They call specifically to talk to Hannah (not their son mind you, LoL) and my daughter knows who her Gammy & Papa are. She has no clue who my mom is. Sad isn't it? Anyways, back to point of vent...So my mom tells me that she doesn't have enough money to fly up and stay with us after all and that she'll just wait until we come down to see her. HAH!! You know...I've been pregnant for almost 9 months here, putting $25 back a paycheck or month even would have scored her plenty of money to fly up. And she works for the gov doing medicaid and medicare stuff so it isn't like she's broke. No kids and very little bills, means enough money to pull some aside. I don't get it...The real kicker here? The fact that she's poured money and time into my dead beat sister who is a meth head who ran off and dumped her daughter on my mom. My mom and her "wife" have gone to visit my step sister twice in San Fran. And my mom sent her "wife" up to stay with her daughter while she had her kid just two months ago. Yep, again Beckie gets the shaft. Which is alright with me. The bitch side of me is pouting and saying fine, see if I ever come to see you and don't blame me when you finally meet Hannah who stares at you and asks you who you are and why you want a hug (she doesn't hug strangers btw) and the real piece that I know will hit her hard yet doesn't bug me...When I ghet to brag about my fabulous mother-in-law who came to stay with me and helped me out and spoiled her grand-kids. My mom is big on jealousy and knowing that this will eat her up brings a smile to her face. I'm not usually this harsh but today, my hormones make it easy to enjoy it....
UGH!
So yesterday I got to drive an hour and a half to Bismarck to pick up my baby swing and jumparoo that I've been wanting. The rainforest ones. God blessed me. I got both for a hundred bucks so I saved about eighty bucks had I bought them new. I don't like buying used in the case of baby stuff but A)Hubby is having a difficult time allowing me to spend money (yet it's okay for him to buy cigarettes and junk for himself, but we won't go there today...) and B)these weren't even used. The lady scored two sets of each (lucky woman) and so she was selling these ones to make room in her house. Whatever. So I spent 3 hours in a car with a cranky toddler to pick these up and bring them home. Made my day honestly. Two less things to deal with...
My garden turned into a jungle on me. I guess after you plant a garden you don't get to just walk away and wait until it's time to pick everything. I forgot you have to go in time to time and weed. I got half of it weeded. It doesn't look like I did much but God forbid whoever walks by and tells me I could have done more or it doesn't look like I did much. I sat my fat ass on a grubby dirty piece of wood on the ground for two hours and pulled weeds while being attacked by spiders and pokey weeds and flying bugs. I don't do dirt or bugs. i was tested years ago for ADD and OCD and was borderline OCD. I don't see it but I guess others do. Part of my issue is I can't have my hands dirty. Literally dirty. And I have to wash my hands a ton of times during the day if they even feel dirty. So me being outside in the dirt was no fun seriously. I took a shower and still don't feel clean. But at least I got out, haha.
So any big 4th of July plans for anyone? I hope everyone has a safe and fun weekend. I'm making the hubby take me out to the move tonight. Night At The Museum. 2 is here. He comes home tonight some time and then leaves Sunday afternoon for another 5 days. Thank God he does this only two more weeks. I'm so used to doing the single mommy thing it's crazy! I don't know what I'll do when he actually is home regularly again, LoL. Daddy who??
33 weeks preggers as of yesterday...7 more weeks! Yay! I've been having braxton hicks for the past 2 days. Not anything to worry me but they still do. That and ouch! LoL. My doctor told me oh they don't hurt, they're just pressure from your uterus practicing...Umm as Rachel on Friends would say: "No uterus, no opinion doc!" LoL. they don't hurt my ass...My last Dr (who was also male) told me how my contractions didn't hurt as bad as I made them out to be and he almost got a foot to the face. This Dr has been warned to watch his mouth, I get violent and pissy when in pain...
Anyways, I'm starving and want to go watch Lethal Weapon 3. Gotta have a little humor somewhere right? So I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend! And the next time I blog, I'll be in a better mood, I promise. :)
*Beckie*