*I wish I had a better camera. I get tired of buying the cheapest one I can afford, use it for a few months even though the picture quality kinda sucks and then find it breaking on me, despise how great I treat it. I've been burning for a nice Canon or Nikon one. You know those ones that are in the, oh I don't know, $500 range? Yeah...My $50 one is dying on me and I could cry. I find the photos that are worth taking are always happening when I don't have a camera on me. Go figure.
*I wish that I wasn't having a guilty issue over wanting a really great camera. When asked what I want for my birthday or Christmas, first answer is always money. So I can shop for my kids. And I do. Well until Abel quit giving me money. Apparently I'm not supposed to spend money on others when it's given to me. Oops.
*I wish I didn't do such stupid things. Yet I do them constantly. I've been slipping up on my swearing lately. I haven't cussed since high school and I have found myself slipping some out lately. I could blame it on the people we hang out with but it's my fault. Temptation of any kind is not a friend of mine at all. I lose. Always. And I hate it too. I also messed up in a big way a few days ago too. I'm ashamed of myself because it was stupid. Really stupid. I was in a lazy yet rushed sort of moment and performed a ridiculous mistake. Everything was resolved which was kind of the person but still. I have a lot of guilt. I hold on to thing. Especially when I mess up. I can forgive everyone out there no matter what happens (trust me on that!) and yet when I myself screw up? I don't forgive myself at all...
*I wish I didn't have baby fever already. Not so much baby FEVER as it is sadness that I can't have anymore babies of my own. No doubt about, we will adopt from here on out but I just feel so robbed right now. Selfish sort of mood I'm in, can you tell?? Ignacio is getting so big, clapping his hands, walking along the couch, crawling, saying da-da, feeding himself. All these milestones hit and I am so excited and am ever the proud mam but with every one that comes, it makes me sad. No more baby. I'll get over it.
*I wish companies, designers, stores and people in general understood the fact that a 2 year old child should NOT be allowed to wear such revealing clothing. We put such hatred towards child molesters (with all reason!) but yet dress our children in the clothing that draws a man's eyes to their little innocent bodies. I saw an episode of The Duggars (Yes I LOVE them!) where their girls wore what looked like jumpsuit bathing suits. I wish I had one honestly. Hannah's butt cheeks hang out of her bathing suit. Her suit makes it look as if she has cleavage. She's 3!! And that is okay by society's standards?? It makes me sick.
*I wish people didn't dog the Duggar family so much. They do a much better job raising their children (all 19 of them mind you!) than I do with my 2. Seriously. Have you ever seen any of them raise their voices at their children in anger?? I do. All the time. I see myself feeling guilty when I watch their show because I wish I was better. Person, friend, mother, you name it.
*I wish I had more interesting things to write about some days...Maybe a good hot topic could rile everyone up would be really interesting, LoL.