An Amish Love By Beth Wiseman, Kathleen Fuller, and Kelly Long

Healing Hearts by Beth Wiseman
He left to find himself. She found her way without him. Now Levina and Naaman Lapp are together again, feeling miles apart. Although coming home was the right thing to do, Naaman must regain the trust and respect of his wife who, in his absence, has learned to trust God like never before. Could it be that their prior years together have simply been a preface to a greater love than they have ever known?

A Marriage of the Heart by Kelly Long
Abigail Kauffman is looking for a way out; Joseph Lambert is seeking a way in. Since her mother's death, Abby has lived alone with her father and longs to escape the emptiness of the farmhouse that has never felt like home. Joseph Lambert is a newcomer in their close-knit community. Only after they find themselves suddenly married to each other do they begin to understand the tender truths of life-long love.

What the Heart Sees by Kathleen Fuller
When Ellie Chupp loses her sight in an accident--and then her boyfriend shortly after that--she believes love will never be in her future. But Christopher Miller has returned home, five years after fleeing from the tragedy that broke his heart. When Ellie and Chris meet again, sparks fly. Could true love be a matter of seeing with new eyes?

Each story teaches something wonderful ( My favorite was the first one, I really need to work on forgiveness and that was a reminder!) As with all my other reviews, I definitely recommend this book. 3-in-1 works awesome too!

Awesome T-Shirts!

So I signed up to be a reviewer of products a few weeks ago and my first review gets to be for www.crazydogtshirts.com They have the best shirts ever! I found some from the hangover which are my favorite. They have vintage t-shirts, funny t-shirts and shirts from the 80's too. If you can imagine a t-shirt, odds are they have it. I got a super cute one that has a picture of a dinosaur on it and underneath it says "Dinosaurs are cool". PRetty stinking cute art work I have to say. I really like their prices and really can't get enough of their designs. My only problem with them however is the fact that when I ordered a large, the shirt is past my hips and a little too large so if you do happen to stray on over there, pick out a size smaller than what you normally wear. Then it will fit you perfect and hey, who doesn't enjoy wearing a size smaller? Hehehe. So what are you waiting for? Head on over and get some t-shirts! :)

NKJV Start! The Bible for New Believers-Greg Laurie

(Taken from www.christianbook.com)
A brand new life of faith begins when we place our trust in Jesus Christ.
Start is the perfect Bible for new believers or believers who want to learn more about their faith. Ideal for introducing new believers to the Bible, Start focuses on basic discipleship with articles and devotions on subjects including prayer, Bible study, church involvement, sharing your faith, and discovering God’s will. Core biblical themes are introduced at basic levels of theological sophistication and presented in very simple language.

Features include:
•Introductory Salvation Article explains what it means to be saved and how to receive salvation
•The Best Gift of All messages focus on various aspects of salvation
•Growing Strong in Faith entries reveal key disciplines of the Christian life
•Building Blocks of Faith expose the core beliefs of the Christian
•Faith Seeds provide mini-commentaries on key passages for spiritual growth
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The best thing about thsi book in my eyes was teh fact that just because I'm not a brand new believer, doesn't mean I didn't get something out of this. This is the perfect book to pick up when you know you have fallen away or are falling away, when difficult questions arise and you have no one to answer them for you or don't know where else to turn, and is also perfect for those ( like me ) who don't know their way around a Bible very well. I'm not like a lot fo people out there, I can't memorize more than a few verses of scripture and I'm not quick thinking or able to battle my way with the Bible. This. Is. Perfect. So if you are any of the above, or like me, this is definitely something you should pick up. Actually, this is perfect for EVERYONE!!

God's Promises For Women of Faith-Jack Countryman

(Taken from Amazon's description...) Beginning with an introduction from Women of Faith® President, Mary Graham, promises of God specifically targeting women are then grouped by topic, including: Encouragement, Teaching, Blessing, Comfort, Growth, and more. Whether for daily Scripture reading or for a quick reference, these promises will help women of faith from all walks of life to worship, pray, trust, and abide in Christ every day.

God's Promises for Women of Faith has twelve chapter including God's plan, God Helps and God gives to name a few. Each chapter has six subtopics for reference and each topic has various Bible verses (New King James version) to meditate and read. The final chapter focuses on six Women of the Faith which I found both insightful and interesting. As a Christian I always enjoy books that have applicable Bible verses on hand that I can reach for when penning an email or card to a friend facing a hard time or circumstance.

The book ends with the Plan of Salvation and also pages for you to make personal notes of your favorite verses and prayer requests. This is a visual feast for the eyes, heart and mind. This makes an amazing book to read if you are falling out of your walk, have questions, feel troubled or have a friend with these issues. It's wonderful and I am soo thankful to have gotten this book. :D

You Changed My Life - Max Lucado

Synopsis (from Barnes and Noble):

If someone has changed your life for the good, now is the time to celebrate by letting them know how much they matter. Often times true heroes of faith don't stand out in the world, but they have made a lasting difference in someone's life-they're a hero to someone. This gift book celebrates their story by first providing a dedication beginning with "You changed my life by___" to be written in detail by the giver to the recipient. To follow are stories told by Max about others who have answered the call of their convictions and took steps of faith (both big and small) resulting in lasting change in the lives around them. It's a message that honors the person who receives the book, and inspires us all to see that real people with remarkable hearts can change lives.
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I got this book, read it and immediately thought of a friend who has made a huge impact in my life so I ordered one for her. This is a collection of short stories of people who have amazing things happen in their lives thanks to amazing people. A sort of Chicken Soup style if you will. It's definitely sweet and will even bring a tear to your eyes. The author is a well known author who has never written anything un true or not a best seller. He has a way with words and stories that makes you want to change and become better in any way. And if you have someone in your life who is amazing, send them this book! Amazing gift!

Faithful by Kim Cash Tate

Three life-long friends experience life-altering struggles. Will they find the strength to be faithful to the covenants they’ve made with God...and each other?

Cydney Sanders thought she knew God’s plan for her life. She’d marry, have kids, and then snap her body back into shape with Tae Bo. But she’s celebrating her fortieth birthday as the maid of honor at her little sister’s wedding . . . and still single. Why would God give her this desire to marry, but no husband? And why is her life suddenly complicated by the best man-who’s the opposite of what she wants in a husband?

Cydney’s best friend Dana has the perfect marriage. But when Dana discovers her husband’s affair, her world goes into a tailspin. And Phyllis is out of hope after six years of unanswered prayers for her husband to find faith. When she runs into an old friend who is the Christian man she longs for, she’s faced with an overwhelming choice.

With life falling apart around them, can they trust God like never before?

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It was Dana's story that caught my eye when I ordered this book. Can a person really fix their marriage after an affair has occurred? Is it really possible or something that is saved for a wonderful fairytale? All you hear about today is divorce and divorce. NO ONE works on their marriage anymore. If something comes up to difficult to try to work through people toss away their wedding vows like yesterday's newspaper. So when I saw this, I snagged it in a heartbeat because I, along with Dana have worked through something incredible and it was only becuse of God that something as beautiful as a marriage, was saved. So this book was incredible. I cried. A few times but it showed me through these three women that a marriage, that a friendship and that difficult problems that arise, everything can be worked through and overcome with God's help. The moment we abandon God, we abandon hope. Have you ever had a trying situation? A problem or moment where you thought it was impossible to get through? Nothing is impossible in God's eyes. And with god on your side, you will never lose. Look for this book, buy this book and fall in love with this book. You will I promise.

100 Prayers God Loves To Hear, 100 Praise Songs review

This was a super cute book and it even came with a CD for the kids to listen to! Hannah already has some of the songs memorized and we listen to it daily. And for bedtime we read a few too.
The pictures are captivating, the verses make it easy to memorize and understand and it makes the kids comfertable learning about God and learning to to talk with Him as well. This is an awesome book to have for your little ones! :) Loooove it!

So, I broke.

I can't resist. I miss blogging but maybe that's because I took a break from it that made me realize how important it is to me. Even if no one reads it or comments it, I still miss writing. Especially about things that I feel come out better if I wrote them down instead of talked about them. Or maybe because I have strangers from far away distances who are really my my trustworthy and special friends. Maybe...It's because I've done it for so long, I'm truly addicted? LoL. Whatever it is I think I'm back. Who knows with my flip-floppy ways...
So I broke yesterday. It actually started Friday night. Abel and I took Hannah to her very first movie in a theatre. Toy Story 3. The big one. :D She loved it and every part of the evening was exciting to her. Even the paying for her own ticket part. I think I watched her more than the movie though. She looked....So old sitting there. Like a big kid who has sat through millions of movies. All of a sudden she was grown up right in front of me. Is that pathetic or does that actually make any sense? During the movie I cried, more in the end part though. I won't say where and why, it gives away too much. But it was sad. Bittersweet actually.
So on to yesterday. So Ignacio was making goofy faces at me and laughing hysterically and one moment I find myself laughing at him and the next...Blubbering like a damn baby. It was one of my "Missing dad" moments. 3 months later and I still cry every so often. Ignacio is so tenderhearted, he saw me crying and started crying too so I had to quickly dry my eyes and get him laughing again.
He's much different than Hannah. Hannah and I have a relationship of course, I mean, I'm only with her 24 hours a day and all. But there's not really a bond there and I ache for that. She has that strong bond and attachment to Abel. Definite daddy's girl. Ignacio on the other hand. Doesn't really have much to do with Abel. He doesn't stray far from me which can totally suck but secretly, deep down, I looove it! My boy....He turns one in two more weeks. I'm having a rough time with it. It sucks knowing that he is the last child I will ever have. Soo bittersweet. I decided to do a Sesame Street party for him. I'm anti-Pooh and the usual First birthdays weren't yelling out at me so I went with Elmo and his gang. And to really make things fun, I got a monkey cake pan and a decorating kit and am going to attempt to make my own cake. Yes, a monkey pan. For a Sesame Street party. I know, I know...But he's my monkey, I couldn't not do it you know? Hannah's birthday comes one month after his so we got her stuff already too. Toy Story theme. And a Buzz Lightyear cake pan. I like cakes so we'll see how I can do...
Hannah is starting Head Start next month. Blows my mind...Awanas, Girl Scouts and Head start. Yikes!! Talk about growing up on me. I'm excited though. I'm focused on being the sort of mom I would have killed to have when I was growing up so even though I'm dysfunctional, maybe she won't know that, hehehe....
I've decided to venture down to California for about a week. Going to visit the in-laws with the kids. Abel is working so he can't make it so it's just me and the kids. I've decided to drop my selfish pity party act and love my in-laws and accept them for who they are, flaws included. I can be a butt head a lot so why i expect others to be prefect is beyond me. I need to let go. So I am. I'm letting go and embracing what little family we have. And it was pretty awesome. When Abel's mom heard I was coming down, she decided to throw a party for Ignacio's birthday. I'm really surprised and excited. They really aren't bad people at all. My issue is I expect them to do like dad did and that isn't reasonable. So I'm hoping for fun times while were there. Venture to San Fransisco. Get a tattoo. Or two. LoL. Who knows...
And I have gone on a change mission. I've gone black hair. To finally match my eyebrows and do something different. It looks good. makes me look a little older but more....fancy? LoL. I can't think of the word right now but it makes me look it. And I've been losing weight finally. 12 pounds in 3 weeks and went from size 16 to size 14 pants :D Going to the gym a lot and doing things healthier finally. I want to be 40 pounds lighter than what I was and/or a size 10 in pants. Which is completely reasonable in my mind. I even got nails done thanks to a Gucci wearing mama out there. Reading about her cute nails and it made me want to get some just because my nails are thin and brittle. They are fun, that's for sure. For once in my life, I feel pretty. I even bought some lingerie at Victoria's Secret on a splurge and didn't turn off the lights when i wore it. I have very low self esteem mind you. VERY LOW and for once, I don't. I think I look cute, I wear my fat pants which fall off my butt and I smile a lot more. Abel likes the change and I think it's good for me.
Anyways, that's about it for me. I'm super tired, had a long day so I gotta go finish up some last minute housework and then go lay down to watch Last holiday. Loove that movie! I hope you all are having a good night. Until next time!

Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul - John & Stasi Eldredge

I'm cheating a little bit here. I requested Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul by John & Stasi Eldredge and I'm only a part of the ways in it but it is incredible so far! I have family coming in for about a week so I know when I finish the book I won't have time to blog the review so I'm going to put down the description off the back of the book and tell you that no amount of words can tell you how wonderful this book is. It's almost freeing really. I can feel myself letting go of everything and looking forward to changing myself. I love books that allow you to look within yourself and rearrange your inner being. I can feel myself letting go of my self image a little bit, almost like cracking a safe open after so many years of trying. I can feel beauty and a little bit of understanding and knowing of who I am. That's a huge thing for me. I'm such a closed person who ends up with every backwards step, closing up more and more and I am so glad I began reading this now, when I needed it the most. I have hopes of it opening me up and becoming a stronger and better person. I hope to find the beautiful woman I am and disposing of this scared, self loathing person I am now. And from what I have read, I know it will change me in big ways :D I feel that yes, every woman should have this and every man should read it to understand us better as well. You can bet yoru pants Abel will be reading this. It will explain to him better than how I can, how to understand me and why I am the way I am. :) Definitely seek this book out! Definitely, definitely. Oh and they make one for guys too :)

"Every little girl has dreams of being swept up into a great adventure, of being the beautiful princess. Sadly, when women grow up, they are often swept up into a life filled merely with duty and demands. Many Christian women are tired, struggling under the weight of the pressure to be a "good servant," a nurturing caregiver, or a capable home manager.

What Wild at Heart did for men, Captivating is doing for women. Setting their hearts free. This groundbreaking book shows readers the glorious design of women before the fall, describes how the feminine heart can be restored, and casts a vision for the power, freedom, and beauty of a woman released to be all she was meant to be. By revealing the core desires every woman shares-to be romanced, to play an irreplaceable role in a grand adventure, and to unveil beauty-John and Stasi Eldredge invite women to recover their feminine hearts, created in the image of an intimate and passionate God. Further, they encourage men to discover the secret of a woman's soul and to delight in the beauty and strength women were created to offer."

Update in my lonely corner.

So this will probably be one of the rare moments where I actually blog anymore. I don't feel like I have the time to read everyone's blogs as I used to what with my new job and running after my kiddos and playing out side and such. I have one day where I play catch up and read everyone blogs that I follow but I don't usually leave comments anymore because mine seem so lost in the millions of others or it has been too late or I just don't feel like it I suppose.
Life is life over on my side. I lost a friend of mine who I used to be super tight with. She had issues that I found out via her husband telling my husband and now I feel a little used and abused so I have cut myself off from everyone. When I was in Montana what I considered "friends" were just a circle of people there to criticize and talk about me behind my back and who were there mainly so my husband could play with their husbands. (PS when I say play, I mean do guy thinsg such as work on cars and play golf) It would have been odd for him to show up and all the lame group functions alone right? Good wife I am I suppose...Plus I had no one else so it was convienant I guess. I mean in the begining I really was close with some of the ladies and then towards teh end drama and other people got in teh way annnnnnd....I'm lame because I'm too shy and closed off to make new friends so I whine in my pity corner. Don't mind me :) So now I have closed myself off due to lack of trust and distance and a tad bit of butt-hurtness and pretty much have realized that I've almost lost everyone along the way. But as much as I should grieve about that it's almost normal. I've only ever had one or two friends and I think I enjoy it that way. I don't like phones or distance and dometimes that can get in the way...Well alot of times actually.
I've gotten a lot of weight off my life however. My mother disowned me for not sharing my father's inheritance with her. She somehow thinks she deserved a chunk or something. She wanted to move to Boise and expected me to help her with it. I stood up and told her no for once in my life and voila! The witch is gone! I still swear God took the wrong parent however but whatever. So now I haveless stress in my life and when someone snarks at me again for spoiling my kids or spending too much on them, I get to retort back with a "Someone has to do it!"
I get tired of people judging me because I tend to overspend on my kids...I get tired of people judging me based on the fact that I spend money at all....
We bought a house. Are buying, whatever. A beautiful house, my dream house, which sits on five beautiful acres with a bueatiful creek running behind it. It's in Libby, Montana and huge. Abel helped build it about 4 years ago so we know it inside and out. And my favorite part (aside from the big kitchen and island in it) is the fact that it has a deck outside of not only the back door but what will be our room upstairs. I dream of sitting outside with hot cocoa and watching the sun set while the water is flowing. And five acres means animals. Tons of animals and a few horses. We've gotten our blessing and will never look for anything else. Praise God! This does not mean we will be moving anytime soon however. We know the people who are selling it very well so they are allowing us to rent to own and from over here. We plan on maybe two years moving over there finally. We want to have a good chunk of money down before taking off.
The kids are faring well. Hannah is going through a rebelling and stubborn streak which some days has me pulling out my hair. Other days she can be sweet as can be and so well behaved. I swear i should have had all boys, LoL. Ignacio is doing well. Pulling himself up on everything and walking along all the furniture for awhile now. Still only 4 teeth and not in a hurry to walk. At all. Sucker hauls butt when he crawls though, it's great.
Abel is working like crazy on the railroad. They kicked into busy season and should be busy for the rest of the summer and well into harvest season. No layoffs this year yay! We are looking forward to next month when the new hires are no longer students and are actual conductors. Abel will not be last man on the totem pole anymore, yay! I hate seniority sometimes...He gets stuck with all the caca jobs being last man.
And I have a job. Just a little dinky one working at our downtown gas station food area. Fixing food. I'm really good with people and customers so it does me well. I had to get it in order for Hannah to be in Head Start this year. So I did it. I'm lazy and don't want to work though mind you. But the work is so menial and there isn't much to do so it's easy enough to not complain about haha. And it's okay money considering where we are and all. With the new house, it's a good thing I got the job, every bit helps right??
I started a new diet. Sort of. The month after I had Ignacio I planned on losing 80 pounds. Half of that was baby weight and half of that was what I had on me pre-baby. I lost my baby weight 4 months after I had him. I've been trying ever since to lose the rest with no luck. So I got on diet pills with my Dr's okay. So I got OxyElite Pro from GNC. And oh my goodness! Amazing! They give me energy which I never have and so far in 4 days I've already lost 7 pounds. I've been walking everywhere and doing a lot of outside work too so that helps. I'm excited because I have dropped one pants size as well! That's more of what i want. Inches gone more so than weight but hey if I'm losing weight, I won't complain! So wish me luck on this new adventure. I have a wedding coming up for a friend and I don't want to be the overweight bridesmaid who barely fits her dress you know...
And that is about it. I get to begin the process of putting together my kid's swingset we bought them which looks intimidating and a definite time consuming job for sure. And I'm going to go see if I have enough time to write some e-mails to some family members I've been neglecting and to some friends as well. If I have time...
I hope and pray all you are doing wonderful with no trouble at this time. And soon I hope to overcome my little gray cloud here and come back into the world again. For now this is what you get and if you miss me, I'm on facebook or you can email me and I will get back to you. I have a new resolution and who cares if it's July? LoL>
Until next time!

Getting To Know Me

It's the time for Mannland's getting To KNow Me Sunday series :)

1. If you had 5000.00 to spend on plastic surgery what would you have done? It's a toss up between nose job (which is actually more realisitic for me) or a boob job. I want another cup size. I'm not ashamed. God blessed me with what I have but I'm completely unproportional.

2. Do you watch Soap operas and if so what is your favorite and why? Nope. My life is enough of a soap opera without trying to keep track of fictional ones.

3. Favorite clothing brand?
Children's Place or Old Navy. Adore them!!

4. An afternoon shopping spree at your favorite store or maid service for a year?Maid service!! Who you kidding? LoL. Someone else to do my laundry oh yaaah!!

5. Would you ever vajazzle?
Va-whatta??

6. Favorite Disney Princess?
I secretly adore Mulan. No damsel in distress for that one. She took matters into her own hands, kicked ass, and at the end of teh day walked away with her man. I love her to pieces!

7. Last movie that made you bawl your eyes out?
Dear John. If you know what has gone in within my life in the past two months, and then you watch the movie, you will understand why...I just don't want to spoil the movie for those of you who haven't seen it yet.

8. Have you ever broken any bones and if so what?
My wrists. My friend was being hit by her boyfriend so I grabbed his nuts and twisted and pulled (As I refer to it, the doorknob job) and told him if he hit her again I'd kill him. As I let go he shoved me down and I fractured my wrist bones. I know can pop my thumbs out of place over and over again hehehe.

And there you go! My weekly Getting To Know Me! :D

Piece of work...

So I'm home again. Finally. Did a week in Montana with the kids and did three days in Wisconsin at the Dells with my friend and her two kids. Poor husband of mine was stuck at home working. He got assigned to Canada for three weeks so I decided that I was not fully ready to be at home, alone just yet so hence the trips. And what an amazing time I had. It wasn't that we did a lot in Montana, it was the fact that I was there. I got to see family. My father's family. I got to see where my dad and I used to live, and think about all the memories we have in that area. I got to see his friends and his favorite hang outs. It brought so many wonderful memories to mind that all my hurt left. Do you realize how wonderful that trip made everything?? And Wisconsin was great too. The kids got to play in the water all day long. They got this beautiful Mexican tan. You know, where their skin is perfect golden brown. Their mother however, slathered on lotion all day, every two hours and came home redder than a lobster. It was so bad that I am STILL burned and STILL peeling and hurting. Ugh!! You'd think I was a red headed Irish woman or something. My goodness...
But as the saying goes, all good things must come to an end and so as of yesterday, they had. Every wonderful feeling has left me. I'm back to missing my father more than ever and now holding onto bitter evil feelings of questioning God as to why he took my father, my best friend when I'm left with evil which calls itself my mother. The woman drives me INSANE! And while I am not one to wish death upon anyone, today I have caught myself wondering why the better parent was taken instead of the other....I used to think I had come to grips with the fact that my mother is pretty much useless. The woman is as self centered as they come. Don't believe me?? Two days after my father passed away, she calls me up.

HER: How are you?
Me:I'm fine I guess. You?
HER: Oh my gosh this drama with .... is unbearable I just don't know what I'm going to do I am so stressed out and ......

For real?? YOU'RE stressed out!?!? That's all that ran through my brain. One week after my father passed away I get another phone call.

Her: Have you gotten the life insurance check for your dad yet? I hate to do this but I'm hiring a lawyer to deal with this court stuff for me and I need to borrow some money, but I don't want to ask anyone else for it, can I count on you??

I have this insane flaw that doesn't let me tell anyone no, but at the same time I knew if I had given her money I'd kiss it goodbye forever and I had plans with that so I lied and told her I wasn't going to have it for a month or so. That cut those questions short.
Then I receive a phone call on my anniversary which got no recognition from her (big surprise there!) asking for money. She was moving out of the state and needed as much money as possible and could I buy the savings bonds she bought for my daughter so that she wouldn't have to pay me back. Then I told her maybe but as I was in Montana I would have to wait until I got home to ask Abel about it. I received a phone call and/or text everyday after that asking me if I was going to send the money and telling me how badly she needed it. Mind you, she was CHOOSING to move. It wasn't like she was being forced out. She had a fabulous job making good money so it wasn't like she got fired or needed a change of jobs or anything. This move has been a spontaneous choice.
So then yesterday I called her three times asking her if she still needed the money and where to send it as Abel and I were talking about if I could send her some. I got a text message telling me she was no longer talking to me because I wouldn't send her any money and she was tired of waiting for me so she was going to get money a different way. I literally got blackmailed from my mother! Fan-freaking-tastic. That's how she has been all my life. Over everything. She has never once helped me in life so why should I feel guilty about not helping her? I have gone to her for help or to borrow some money and would instead get a "Go ask your dad he has more money than I do" speech. Awesome right?? When my dad would send me birthday money or Christmas money or just cash for a random thing, she'd open up the letter first, take out the money and then hand me the card. When my dad found this out he would be furious! That's how she is. I would love to dish out everything she has and hasn't done for me. But that would take up the entire site and I can't do that. I just get so angry thinking about all the games she plays on me so that I bow down to her and do everything I can to please her and keep her nice and yet when I have ever needed or wanted soem sort of help or even advice, she's too good for that.
My dad was my best friend. He hated my mother and tried to warn me and tried to warn me about her and her games. I didn't want to see it. I still don't. I tried to be blind as long as possible because I'm the one who has to make everything happy even if I'm the only one hurting. I get so tired of people pleasing but yet can't stop. Why on Earth do I have to suffer without my dad and now have to suffer with my mom? The hard part? My dad isn't here to listen to me bitch and whine about her anymore. I can't talk to Abel about it because he hates her with every beat of his heart. This would egg him on even more. *sigh* So blogger friends, I have run to my blog to whine about it and hope that by jotting it down, I can get it off my chest. I hope it works...
Want to hear how else I am going crazy? I think my house is haunted. And it is scaring me so badly that I want to move. My daughter has a puzzle with like six animals on it. They are the wooden animals with the red stick coming out of each piece? You know what I mean? Well when you stick the cow in the cow slot, you hear a moo come from it. Same thing with the sheep and the dog and so on and so forth. Well the crazy part is, this puzzle is brand new and lately when we talk about my dad which isn't often, that sucker moos. With the puzzle piece still in it. It freaks me out. Last night, all night long we hear something pounding on our downstairs walls. Nothing down here. No wind. Nothing. Then my son, he has this inflatable penguin. It's like that giant clown where no matter how hard you punch it, you can't keep it down. It keeps bouncing back up. Well this thing is maybe a foot tall and has a few jingling balls in it and it plays noises and a song too I think. Well anyways, so we were talking about a week ago about selling my dad's RV and the sucker bounced over like someone had punched it. Only, no one was there! Abel, I and a friend of ours was standing four feet away. And I don't do well with ghost stories or even the thought of ghosts. I get freaked easily. So I honestly don't know if I want to knwo if something is here or not. I'm freaked either way though. But I do know one thing, I'm not crazy, because Abel has witnessed all this too. So booyha crazy people, I'm not one of you!! I DON'T see dead people....Yet...

Ugh, you know, I actually feel a pinch better. Abel says to just say screw you to my mother. Tell her that if all she wants to do is game play and have everything be all about her all of the time, then I don't have the time nor energy to deal with her. And it isn't like my kids will miss her, she has never sent even a birthday card. She has seen Hannah twice in the almost four years that she has been on this Earth and only talked to her on the phone like twice as well. But yet she gets angry when I am late sending my niece a birthday card then gets angry because I didn't put enough money in the card or send a big enough present. "Cards aren't gifts, the kids can't even read for crying out loud!" And God forbid if I buy my kids clothes and not my nieces, "They need clothes too Beckie!" Okay, wait, I'm sorry. I wasn't going to rant so I'm stopping. I'm just so...angry...pissed off...hurt too. UGH!!! Why couldn't I have had a normal mother!?!?

Alright, alright. I'm ending it here. I need to watch a good movie, drink some yummy tea and settle down. God has a plan with all this, I just need to leave Him in control and hang on for the ride...I hope you all are having a much better weekend than I. Fourth of July is coming up, any big plans??

I shall be back! Once I'm in a better mood. Not so ranty and all :) Much love to you all!! Goodnight!

Hermie Review

This will be mighty short as I in the past hour have come home from my spontaneous trip to Montana. I'm not even going into the chaos that greeted me as I walked into the house....Egad!! So I will actually blog later...But for now...

I recently got a Hermie movie in the mail and watched it while we were gone. It's called Who Is In Charge Anyways? and it was super cute!!

When Freddie hears Hailey and Bailey ask their mother whats special about fleas, he think it's time to have a talk with God.

Freddie is reminded that Hermie and Flo and Buzby and Webster and even Antonio all had to learn important lessons before their special talents were put to use. Freddie learns that God didn't make anybody by accident, and that he's not finished with us yet.

It contains newly animated flashbacks of key garden characters in their youth along with pivotal scenes from classic episodes from the past. And the lesson is based upon Psalm 90:16 "Show your servants the wonderful things you do; show your greatness to their children."

Hannah really loves the Hermie series and the Buzby as well and this one didn't let us down at all. If you haven't found the Hermie series yet you absolutely have to try at least one. You'll be hooked!! :D

I've Got A Lovely Bunch Of Coconuts....

Deedly dee!! LoL. I love that movie...Wish I had it now. Ever get movie cravings? Where you just really want to watch a specific movie right now? I get those more frequently than food cravings. Hmm...

So how was everyone's week? Hoping all went well with everyone. I finally got my beautiful car. And loving it so much. It's a much bigger step to driving a car that literally runs on it's last leg. And now I have room for both of my children and groceries or something else at the same time. I used to have to put one or both kids in daycare in order to go grocery shopping. Not anymore :) And I'm not scared of driving anymore either. Best part ever.

I have accompplised paying off 85% of our debt. I love the brand new feeling that I have. I feel new. It's taken what seems like forever but it's finally almost over and I may end up with some credit yet! Yay!

the only part is, I feel mucky. On the outside I'm fine of course. I shower. But on the inside I feel...weird. like a little dark and murky. I can't really describe it. One of my closest friends has been ignoring me. She's the kind of person like I am, when I'm sad or upset, I shut down. She does too. And that's what she is doing. It's hard to not feel upside down. We're planning on going to Wisconsin on a trip with the kids at the end of the month and now I'm not so sure what's going on. I don't like it though, that's for sure.

So to bring a little sunshine into life I've decided to venture home for about a week. Abel is getting sent to Portal, Canada for at least a week and I don't feel like hanging around here alone for an entire week if not more. The house is too empty. I dis-like it. So I'm going to go visit my bestie and hang with her for a week. Plus, it'll be nice to be in Montana again. My mom is moving up to Bonners Ferry, Idaho in about a month so she's hoping that will help get me over there faster, haha.

My kitties are doing well. Such sweet little buggers. Hannah of course has to truck them everywhere but for the most part, they fit in great. Now if we could only find a home for our dog who attempted to eat one of the kitties, we'd be great!

For the most part that is it for me. I'm going to clean, get some groceries and pack. I'm heading out tomorrow same time as Abel does. So busy day ahead of me! Yay! So I hope you all have a fabulous week and I will be on when I get back.

Happy Birthday Gucci Mama!!!!

I like big. And bold. And what's bigger and bolder than posting about the high queen of Gucci's birthday!?!? That's right, today out of all the holy days in the year is the holiest. She turns another year sweeter, wiser, and more refined. Just not older, hehehe. Once you get to the high Queendom, you won't age either :P

If you have no idea who I am talking about, you should be ashamed! Letting such a fantastic woman (and a great bloggy friend as well!) get past you. You should visit her by clicking on her link. If that isn't incentive as it is, she is giving away something! I knwo right?!? Insane for someone to give away a gift on their own birthday!! But that's who she is, always giving and wonderful. So Gucci Mama I sincerly wish you a very happy birthday. And I hope today has nothing but happiness, great memories and blessings galore!

Meow! (& a little Getting To Know Me too!)

Life here has gotten twice as exciting! ;) We have added two sweet, yet shy, babies to our household! They are adorable, loving, a little shy, and yet hairy as can be and only going to get more so as they grow! Sisters and April Fool's day babies which is even more cooler! I have never known anyone who was born on April 1st. Have you?? Oh by the way...These are our new kittens, not humans, haha. No idea what we are going to call them yet, hopefully in a few days we will think of something.




And of course from Mannland a little Getting To Know Me session....Enjoy!

1. Have you ever snooped around someone else's house?
No, honestly I don't. I can't even pee in someone else's bathroom let alone snoop!

2. Can guys and girls be friends?
Yes. I'm one of those girls who had a very few amount of actual girl-friends and a whole crapload of guy-friends. Guys are so much less work. They can be awesome listeners, the best critics, and totally less drama. The only bad thing about being a guy's friend is dealing with his girl-friends. For some reason, just because I have been his friend for over 4 years, you think I want his body and don't want you in the picture. Puh-lease. Women, if you're man has a friend who is a girl, get over it. She's been there longer than you and obviously, if she had wanted your man at all, any more than just a friend, she would have acted on her feelings long before you came along. Ugh!

3. Can you curl your tongue?
I'm pretty sure that's what it's called, LoL.

4. Have you ever stolen anything?
Once when I was 6 I stole a pack of 25 cent gum. I got caught and cried as I had to apologize and give it back. I was so embarrassed I never went back. Then when I was 16 I took a pair of earrings from a store in the mall. Why? To see if I could. After I got away with it, I slid them back into the store and kept walking.

5. Would you rather talk on the phone or text?
If you know me outside of blogger, you know that I am a texter. I hate talking on the phone because I feel so awkward. And shy. I don't know why. I avoid calls from even my own mother so it isn't personal or against anyone or anything like that. I do talk to a very few friends, one from here and one from Montana back where I am from. I'll get over it one day I suppose...I hope...

6. Memorial Day plans?
Not really any. We've never made a huge deal out of the weekend, usually my dad will go out for a few drinks with his buddies and we hang out here. Tomorrow we will be remembering my dad who was in the Marine Corps and the Air Force and a few of my family who were also in the military.

7. What do you do to relax?
Relax? What is that?? I try to read and chill out for the most part. When I used to have panic attacks a few years ago I used to spray my bed and pillows with lavender spray, put on my i-pod to Enya and read a good book as I sipped on lemon water. It worked so well. I never took off the headphones even when I fell asleep. I'm so anti medicine it isn't funny....

8. Do you do anything to honor those that have died fighting for our freedom?
I'm ashamed to say I don't. I have never known anyone who died in action. When I see a Vet. or a soldier home on leave, I thank them. Always, always thank a soldier! My father served two tours in Vietnam during his 25 years in the Marine Corps. I always told him how proud I was to have him as my father and for what he did. Especially during that time when no one approved of the war. So even if you don't approve of this war going on, don't blame our soldiers, they day daily to protect us and to do their duty to our country. But thank them and try to help them in any way possible.

Oooh what a week...

Only in this great nation of ours can one person go to court, sue someone for visitations and guardianship over a child that isn't theirs in any way shape or form and WIN!!! Love it! My mother's ex-girlfriend (yes, you hear me correctly and this will possibly explain a little bit why I don't believe in certain acts...)decided after they broke up to sue my mother for this. Over my sister's baby. Yes, that would make it my mother's grand-daughter. Stupid right?? Oh it gets better. This woman, this repulsive pathetic excuse for a human being decided to throw a brick through my mother's living room and bedroom windows (and was witnessed doings o mind you!) And also removed the brakes and reverse in my mother's van (and also witnessed doing so!) and has also admitted to a judge that she is a drug user and alcoholic and yet. YET! she has won visitation over my niece. What the heck dude!?! And people wonder why I want to move to Canada? Ugh...

Yesterday I made a trip to our local ER. My body decided to wake me up in pain and so I headed over to see if my kidney was bursting which it felt like it was going to do. All I have ever heard from people, doctors and civilians alike mind you, is how drug seekers need to stop seeking drugs, and how they are pathetic and blah blah blah. But yet when I refuse all pain meds, they try to talk me into taking some. Narcotics even! Umm I think the real problem lies within our doctors and nurses. Quit begging people to take meds and we won't have drug seekers right?? LoL I'm not really pissy today I'm just ... bewildered at people. Anyways, after all was said and done I have a cyst ready to rupture, some inflammation and a small kidney stone. It isn't bad, honest. But that's because mine is so small and I probably already passed it by now. Great! Good to know. My kidney still hurts though....

I'm going to be a maid of honor in a friend's wedding. never been in a wedding other than my own. I think it will be pretty fun. Once I get over the fact that we will all be wearing tangerine. Hmm...LoL. It's a fun color don't get me wrong but me in a strapless tangerine dress? I dunno...The really awesome part is that my husband is the best man for it too so I will have an excuse to be with him :) Yayness! The wedding is in October so if you all wanna see me look like a girl (rarely done) stick around, it should be exciting ;)

A friend and I are heading to the Wisconsin Dells in a month. It's only 9 hours away so it isn't too bad of a drive or anything. I've never been to Wisconsin so I'm excited about that. And for 3 days, we will be living at a the country's largest water park and resort. Love it!!

Certain special friends on here, my bloggy besties :) will know what I'm talking about here in my next rant. I love blogging. Simply because this is the one place I can be me, can vent and cant rant and never once be afraid or ashamed. That is because I don't tell my friends or family that I blog. It isn't that I don't trust them with this blog but only because I don't feel I can totally be me without some sort of a consequence you know? While I am also on Facebook, I am never quite me on there. When Abel and I argue or having a skirmish, I have never broadcasted it on there. Rather I play like everything is perfect all of the time. So a few days I wrongly went a vented about a recent tiff we had. i don't have my dad here so I didn't have anyone to run to and vent on which is where I can freely speak without thinking you know? So I ranted on my facebook status. Where I promptly got chewed out by Abel's younger, un-married, single mother, sister. Who has no clue what goes on here but will stand up for her brother no matter who or what. She's very into drama and very immature still. Well some very great friends of mine had my back and promptly dealt with it in a comical way. I thought it was freaking hilarious, she on the other hand did not. So I apologized, for she held me responsible (because as everyone should know, I tell my friend exactly what to do, I am the great puppet master ;) ) and then I deleted it shortly after because I knew she would run to Abel about it all. I texted her for about 20 minutes talking to her and explaining what was going on and my side of story and dealt with her beef basically. Then the last thing I asked was "Are we cool?" "Of course we are, don't worry about a thing! Now I know what is going on, I understand!" Yeeeaaah....So Abel comes in 4 hours later pissed off and we have at it. Why?? Oh because his siter ran and tattled to him. How I was badmouthing him all over facebook and how my friends were chewing into her all for nothing and out of nowhere and she's really worried about us and blah blah blah. Not only am I fuming (still) over the fact that she went behind my back and created a fight for Abel and I, but this is the girl who when she has been in trouble (Quite frequently) I'm the first one to tell her how we will send money or how I will drive down to California to come get her and bring her up here to live with us and anything else she needs. Yes I was wrong to vent on Facebook for all the world to see but don't come between my husband and I. Ever. So, little sister-in-law got her ass deleted. I don't feel bad about it either. In fact doing so makes me want to delete his whole damn family. Why the heck not? I'm so anti family right now. No one will ever live up to my standards now that my dad is gone. No one loved my children more than my father. He was the only relative to even give my kids cards or to think of them. Never mind the fact that he spoiled them to piss. Not the point. Now I am stuck with no one. Abel says it isn't anyone job to do anything for my kids, and you know what? You are right Abel. For once I agree. It also isn't my job to go see anyone nor send cards either nor give out photos. So if these "family members" want anything to do with my kids, they will have to start giving first. Cards are top of my lists along with a visit every five years or so. Abel has declared California a no visit zone which I can live with. We have gone down at least once a year, every year for visits, not anymore! Ugh feels sooo good! Ever since dad died, I've been bogged down with stress, it feels so great to vent and get some off my chest. I have decided to be a little selfish and start putting myself first for awhile. Not in a bad way but I tired of doing and giving for others and getting nothing back you know? My family sucks. Some of my old friends suck. So I'm done.

I feel good now. Thank you for letting me vent. I'm hoping I feel better tomorrow. I splurged and bought a new carpet shampooer because I have never owned one and my carpet is trashed. So I hope I can salvage it by washing it and I know I feel tons better afterwards too. Loove it!

So my little puppets, I hope you are having a fabulous day! If not then I hope it only ends fabulously. I think everyone deserves a Starbucks and a foot massage! Now if I had more $$ I might take me up on that...For now have a great evening and day tomorrow and I shall blog again later! (And happier!)

God's Promises For Boys.

Such an adorable book! I requested it from www.booksneeze.com Have you checked it out yet? Request a book and get it for free, then you in turn review it and as soon as your review is in, you can request another book :) Simple and fun. This time I requested this book for Hannah and am really excited! It's absolutely adorable and lots of fun to read too!

By Jack Countryman, Amy Parker(2010) - 128 pages


"God promises when...You want to be cool."



"Stylin', chillin', and rollin' your way
Are fine when you're breaking no rules.
But helpin' and respectin', and followin' God's ways
Are the one way to be coooool."



"Do not be shaped by this world. Instead be
changed within a new way of thinking. Then you
will be able to decide what god wants for you.
And you will be able to know what is good and
pleasing to Godand what is perfect.
Romans 12:2"



"So through Jesus let us always offer our sacrifice to
God. Thsi sacrifice is our praise, coming from lips that
speak His name. Do not forget to do good to others.
And share with them what you have. These are
the sacrifices that please God.
Hebrews 13:15-16"



I did a review for the girl's version a few blogs ago so I'm basically going to copy my review for that one as these books are the same, they just differ with what the verses used and for what reason. The Bible that we bought for Hannah and will be buying for Ignacio, is where they got the verses from, so not only will Ignacio become familiar with the book because of the Bible, but it will also push him to use his Bible more, in order to look up the verses. The promise verses are used to offer comfort and encouragement when a boy is feeling afraid, lonely, worried, angry, dissatisfied, discouraged, sad, rebellious, impatient, or sick and when they need reassurance of God's protection, love, forgiveness, help and that He listens when they pray. It's a great way for boys to hide God's Word in their hearts. Defintely a recommendation from me! Hannah loves hers and I know Ignacio will too!

Back To Life

Oh Blogger and friends, I really have missed you. Some of you have been on my mind a lot these past few days. And I have pulled blogger up a few times over the last week and then chickened out on writing something. I don't want to focus on my father's passing. It may consume me but it doesn't meant I need to bring everyone else down and chase you away with saddening blather right? Right.

My aunt and uncle left this morning. We got to drop off my kids at a friend's house and then take off yesterday for Minneapolis. It was eventful because while I was driving, I managed to blog a tire. And then, if anyone has been through North Dakota or Minnesota, a lot of places aren't named, you literally are in the middle of nowhere so you must rely on mile markers. I didn't. So I had to call 911, report to a state trooper who located us and sent a tow truck and himself to help us. I was ever so grateful! And then we got to go to a closed Mall of America to eat at my most favorite place to eat in the whoooole world, Bubba Gump's. It brightened my day so much and I even got a t-shirt and souvenir key chain. I am a huge fan of key chains. It's a bad habit actually but I love them. If there's a story behind them, I collect them. And especially if I go somewhere memorable, I get one. I have more key chains then keys now, LoL. Addictions get the best of us.

It's eerily quiet in my house and while my family was here I was able to forget about dad. Now I have no choice but to face it. I hate it only because I miss him. A lot. I feel guilty that I abused the time that he was here and didn't take advantage of it. I feel sad because my goal was for him to see Ignacio's first steps just as he did with Hannah. And I feel especially sad because the one grandparents who loved my children and showed any caring feelings for them, is no longer here. I feel sad. But I also know that his passing was really the best. Sitting on this Earth, stuck in a hospital room for 3 months and suffering for a single breath was not the way he should have lived. And I know in my heart we will meet again :)

I'm finally getting a new car. Almost all of this nasty paperwork is finished and my father's wishes are being respected to a T. Bills are being paid off completely, a car is on it's way, and money is going to my children's savings accounts. We had him cremated and it was the only wish I wish I didn't respect however. Let me take the time right now to advise you all out there, please, PLEASE have a will. If you don't have one, get one and if you do, make sure it is up to date with children and wishes and such. Create a living will as well. Don't take for granted that you will have tomorrow and if you don't, please take the time to consider life after you leave. Do you realize how expensive it is to die?? The bills you leave behind will be left to your lucky loved ones to pay off for you. People will have no clue what to do with your estate. And people will fight. It's a given. And if you don't have life insurance, get some of that as well. Out of consideration and love for your family.

I'm heading to Wisconsin next month. A friend and I are taking our kids to the Wisconsin Dells. Anyone been there before?? It looks amazing. Utterly and blissfully amazing. I can't wait. I need a vacation.

Another piece of bright news, we are getting a kitty! More exciting than anything right now. I'm a MAJOR cat fan. And with the house so lonely I told Abel that since I'm home all of the time, I'm getting me a cat. When I was little I was determined to grow up and be the crazy cat lady down the street. It starts :)

So anyways folks. That's my updates for now. I'm so tired from lack of sleep all week long and now that the kids are asleep I think I may follow that trend and head out. I love and adore you all, thank you for your awesome words of comfort and encouragement and your prayers especially. Thank you for being so kind and for being such amazing friends and I promise, I will be back. I got a new book in and it needs a review ;) Until then....

New Meaning

Mother's Day will forever have a new meaning for me. Today, the day before Mother's Day, I lost my father. I lost one of my closest friends. The closest friend. My leaning tower of strength, the one who gave me wisdom and advice when I needed it, the one who taught me everything I know and the one who taught me how to be strong. I also am proud of the stubborness I got from him even. It's hard for me right now because it doesn't even feel real right now. He spent the last 3 months in the hospital so if I sit here and don't think of anything, I can pretend that all I have to do is pick up the phone and call him and he'll answer. And I'm proud because I lasted exactly two hours without breaking down and crying. Until now.
I e-mailed him this morning. Why? I don't know. But in a way, it makes me feel somewhat closer to him knowing I can at least send him messages. I can escape in a letter for just fifteen minutes. I can pretend that what I send him will somehow get read. Common sense tries to kick in but I chase it away.
Today was the first sunny day in over two weeks. Warm and beautiful and my birds were back. I kind of wished it would have been cloudy and rainy like it has been. A nice big storm would have fit my mood. It doesn't seem right that I can't be happy and energetic like usual. I can't even push these feelings away like I usually do. I know my dad, if he were here, would tell me to get them out. Grieve now and get it out and then start moving on. I know he would tell me to tough it up. As much as I want to curl up in my bed and be there for days, I can't. I have kids that need my attention. Bills to take care of. Papers to find. Lawyers to consult. Family is coming. So is the funeral.
That will be the end. That will be the day that I have to accept that this is really happening. This is not some awful nightmare. Like the one I had three days ago. I dreamt he passed away but in my dream I never cried. That should have been my warning. Because the worst of it? We didn't expect it to happen this soon. He was going to be coming home this week. I didn't feel good so I didn't go visit yesterday. I didn't even call him. And now I feel sick to my stomache racked with guilt and shame because I wasn't there. I left him alone all because I was selfish and didn't want to suffer just a little bit to go visit him. Or even call. How hard would that have been? I didn't tell him I loved him. I didn't get to say goodbye. I didn't get to see him one last time. But the one thing I have in my mind was when I saw him last, he finally had enough strength to hold my son. He held Ignacio and hugged him and kissed him and even fed him ice cream and laughed about it. My last memory will always be a happy one. Hannah was behaving for once. She gave her papa a big hug and asked him to come home. I have a happy last memory so I can't be regretful for that. I just have regrets of another nature I suppose.
I'm not blogging for sympathy. I had to vent. I have nowhere else to vent. I'm sure my husband and mother are tired of my phone calls, texts and just overall sadness. So for now, I will get through each day, one day at a time. My aunts and uncles are coming down so I won't be alone. And hopefully he is watching down on me from Heaven. Maybe I gained a new guardian angel. The thought that makes me incredibly happy is the picture of my father walking with my grandmother. No oxygen hoses, no pic lines, no gaspin or wheezing and no wheelchairs. Walking. Happily. In peace and painfree.
So today is not just the day before Mother's Day. It is now the day that my father, Richard Montgomery, took his place above. The day God chose another angel to join him.

You can shed a tear that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all that he has left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow because of yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember him and only that he's gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back, or you can do what he'd want: Smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Rest in peace dad, we love you so much and will miss you always!!

Richard Montgomery

Nov. 22nd 1940 - May 8th 2010

God's Promises For Girls.

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God's Promises For Girls.

Such an adorable book! I requested it from www.booksneeze.com Have you checked it out yet? Request a book and get it for free, then you in turn review it and as soon as your review is in, you can request another book :) Simple and fun. This time I requested this book for Hannah and am really excited! It's absolutely adorable and lots of fun to read too!

By Jack Countryman, Amy Parker(2010) - 128 pages

"God promises when...You live like His princess"

""Did you know you are a princess?
Yes, a daughter of the King!
So live the life of royalty,
And show the joy God's love can bring!""

"Trust the Lord and do good
Live in the land and enjoy it's safety.
Enjoy serving the Lord
And he will give you what you want.
Depend on the Lord.
Trust him, and he will take good care of you.
Then your goodness will shine like the sun.
Your fairness will shine like the noonday sun.
Psalm 37:3-6"

"You are children of the Lord your God...
He has chosen you from all the people on
earth to be his very own
Deuteronomy 14:1-2"

The thing that gets me is that the Bible that we bought Hannah, was where they got the verses from so not only will she become familiar with the book because of her Bible, but it will also push her to use her Bible more, in order to look up the verses. It's easy to understand and it uses day to day things, such as fear of monsters or spiders, to sadness and lonelyness. It isn't very long so it doesn't intimidate you but what it has is very useful and will help a young girl get through her day's easier. If you know or have a little girl, this book would definitely be a great help for her! They also have one for young boys too. Definitey recommend them both!

Mother's Day

This year, not only am I celebrating the wonderful mothers around me, I'm also celebrating my children. My reasons for being able to particiapte in this day at all. My beautiful and goofy 3 year old little girl who teaches me something new everyday and who shows me what love truly is. And my insanely handsome and playful 9 month old little boy who shows me what letting go can really do and who has taught me to live each day as if it were the last. And for the three who I wasn't allowed to keep with me here on Earth. Whom I love just as much as the ones I have with me even though I wasn't able to keep them with me for long.

I hope and pray each one of you get to have a wonderful day with your family and/or friends and that you are celebrated along with your children and your mothers. Because if your mother is as crazy as mine, in twenty years, you'll know how she got that way ;)

BLAGH!

What on Earth was I thinking!?!?! Ignacio hasn't had teeth for the past 8 months. And I was in a hurry for him to get them why!?!? The boy has been a whiny, nose-dripping, drooling, cranky mess for the past three days. Granted he finally popped his first tooth yesterday but dear Lord make it stop!! It is looking like he will pop another one real soon. I don't mind the teeth popping but my wonderful perfect angel baby has morphed into this...this...MONSTER! Argh I forgot how much of a pill babies can get to be when they are teething. I swore I wouldn't give this one Tylenol. I'm not a medicine momma. But this has gotten so bad that I ran to the store, got some and then gave him half a dose last night. I couldn't do it without it. I feel bad for him, really I do but oh my word....LoL.

Today was the city wide garage sale. I must have hit 2o houses and came up with some cool stuff but then with loads of uncool stuff. I bought a V-Smile with 6 games and turns out the game system is going out already. I want to gripe about wasting $20 but that really was a steal and if I have to buy the game system itself, at least I have the games right? I didn't find any clothes for my son. Zero! Walmart doesn't carry very many boy clothes and what they do have, I've not been able to get in his size. And I'm down to a handful of shirts and onesies and like 3 pairs of pants. I hate, HATE not having a ton of clothes for him. He'll be in 6-9 months for awhile so I just need to find a ton. I hear rumor of there being an all city garage sale for Minot (the next biggest city closest to us) in two weeks so if I can dig up money, I will be going just for him. I did get a few clothes for Hannah but nothing like I expected. Summer will be here soon and what I normally do is buy her entire summer wardrobe and then some from this garage sale thing. Not this year! Walmart here I come! I did manage to find a treasure though! A BIG treasure! Beverly Lewis wrote the Abram's Daughter's series. I gave mine to our church for their new library they had built, a few years back and although I was sad about it (they were my favorite series!) I knew I was doing something much better than keeping them to myself. Well today, I hit the Relay For Life sale and guess what I found!? All 5 books in the series for a quarter a piece! Brand new condition too. To me, books are greater worth than jewelry or clothes. No lie. So when I found these I almost bawled! I took them and donated more to them because of how excited I was and they were raising money for Cancer research. My day was not a waste at all because of this, haha. How goofy am I?!?

My sister-in-law, her fiance and their baby boy (who is 2 months younger than Ignacio) are coming to visit in two more weeks. It's a surprise that my husband does not know about which I think is absolutely great! I love secrets and am awesome at keeping them. Mainly because I forget all about the secret itself, haha. But I'm excited to get the boys together to play with each other and take tons of photos and of course visit with my SIL. I'm not so crazy about my drug dealing, gangster soon-to-be-BIL buuut I'll get over it. If he has to come in order to see my family, so be it! Does that make me sound like a bad person? Honest I'm not...

I got a job! Oooh I have been so tired I haven't been blogging lately but I got a job and that is my excuse. I had to get out of the house to do something and it hasn't been bad leaving the kids. Mainly because I'm only gone two nights a week but still, it's something and makes me feel like I'm doing something other than cleaning and sitting around the house. I'm cooking in a brand new restaurant. It's been fun so far but all we have been doing is cleaning, organizing and inventory. Grand opening is next Friday. I am nervous but at the same time I know it will be fine. I'm only in charge of the appetizers and fried food because let's face it, that's all I know. And honestly, that's all I really want to know. As long as I don't touch bacon though, I will be fine. I burn bacon no matter how low of heat it is and how short of time it cooks. Pathetic. I know...

Now that I have updated I think I will run off and go read some of my books. I still am getting through my Karen Kingsbury books. I'm on the Forever series of the Baxter family series. I LOOOVE this series and have begun collecting her books now too. I've gotten all but the last 2 books in the Sunrise series :( Oh well...So anyways, i hope everyone is having a fabulous day and that it isn't grey and rainy for you like it is here. I will blog again later! Until then, be blessed and have a fabulous week!!

[LATE] Getting To Know You

I apologize! I'm super late! Supposed to have had this up this morning, my bad. We had a lot going on today and as it was one of THOSE days, we'll take the fact that I posted this at all and love on that one, LoL. So you know what to do. Hit up MannLand and check these out!


1. If you could star in any movie genre..what would it be..romance..horror..comedy..suspense or action?
Ooh definitely comedy. I would feel a little adulterous if I was in a romance with anyone other than my husband. Comedy is what I love watching and living in real life so I think I could totally pull it off for a movie :)

2. Do you recycle?
Kind of. I save all my egg cartons and give them to the egg farmers around here. I get free eggs in return which is nice but I don't save them for that reason. I don't save my cans but as much soda as my husband and father drink, I will be. I do save my can tabs though. Did you know if you save your pop can tabs and give them to the Ronald McDonald House, you are giving them money? They use them for money for the people they help. DO IT!

3. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Honestly? No. Have I ever watched a porn? Nope. Dirty mags? Nope. No interest I guess. I have this amazing looking guy here *coughcoughHUSBANDcoughcough* and for that, I don't need any other man ;)

4. Do you have a nickname?
Becca. Beckie. And the one that I still sadly carry on from high school, Jew.

5. What's a name you can't stand to be called?
White girl. Cracker. Seriously. I go back to Fresno to visit Abel's family and it scares me. Mexican women glare at me because I'm with Abel, a Mexican. The little city they are from right outside of Fresno, is ALL Mexican. No white people. And no exaggerating. Why didn't I stick with my own kind? i get that one A LOT. I can't stand the names they call me in Spanish or English and I can't stand that they hate on me just because I'm white. Get a life.

6. What are your Summer staples?
Jeans. No seriously, no matter how hot it is, I am always in a pair of jeans. I can't show off my legs. It isn't that they are fat. They aren't too bad (until you hit mid-thigh) but with Hannah I ended up with so many scars thanks to my PUPPS and also with about 12-20-something big blue veins all over my calves. I'm too ashamed to show off my legs because I know people will stare and I know they aren't pretty. I'm embarressed and I honestly have very little self esteem. I bought a dress this year. I may wear it so I can stick my feet in the baby pool when I take the kids.

7. What was the last thing you bought for yourself?
HA! I buy myself things?? No, no I take that back. I bought Biggest Loser for the Wii for myself. Before that...No clue. I don't ever buy myself things. Unless it's food, LoL.

8. Are you happy with your boob size?
Yes. I like them. I just would like them a little higher. Haha.

Five Question Friday!

First off let me say welcome to my new followers! :) I hope I don't let you down in anyway and that we may become friends :)

Today is Friday as you know. And as I have been pretty mundane lately, I thought I could use a little something new. Different. So welcome to Five Question Friday. Anything that helps me let go of myself a little and tell more of myself is always welcome. Lol No honest, I'm not vain or full of myself.

So without further ado, courtesy of My Little Life here's Five Questions!


1. What was the first car you owned?
It was a 1985 Dodge Ram that I bought from my father. Yes, you heard me right. I purchased my own rig from none other but my father. All of my friends had beautiful brand new cars. You think I'm exaggerating but I'm sadly not. But out of everyone in my grade, I took the best care of my vehicle. My father taught me responsibility at an early life. His favorite phrase? "Nothing is free and no one ever gets handouts in life so quit looking and start working." And that was awesome. I paid half my insurance and paid all of my gas. Anything that needed work on my father paid for however. But he got it all done free I found out years later, LoL. Thanks to a family friend. This was awesome though and it taught me so much that I may not have liked learning then but appreciate now. And when my kids hit the ripe old age of able to own a car, they took will not be given one for free but will in fact purchase their own. It teaches morals, appreciation, responsibility and doesn't give room for laziness. Things that children nowadays (and some grow-ups too) lack...

2. What song are you embarrassed to know the lyrics to?
Any Backstreet Boys, Britney Spears or yes, Justin Bieber, LoL. I love pop. Still do. *blush*

3. Have you ever had stitches?
Twice. I had two on each cheek when I had my jaw surgery done. They had to cut a hole in my cheeks in order to put two screws into my jaw. It's a messy story never you mind...And then I had a few honeymoon stitches when I had Hannah.

4. What was your first job?
I got two at the same time. I was 15 and worked at Pizza Ranch here in town and I also worked at our local radio station as a DJ. Mostly on the weekends and for 3 hours everyday after school. It was fun!

5. Who is your favorite Sesame Street character?
Big Bird!! He's always been my favorite. Him and Snuffy. I try to get Hannah to watch them buts he has no interest. But turn on that awful Yo Gabba Gabba and boom! She's glued.


Now you guys get to head on over to My Little Life and link up and do your own!! Thanks for reading!

I Wish.

*I wish I had a better camera. I get tired of buying the cheapest one I can afford, use it for a few months even though the picture quality kinda sucks and then find it breaking on me, despise how great I treat it. I've been burning for a nice Canon or Nikon one. You know those ones that are in the, oh I don't know, $500 range? Yeah...My $50 one is dying on me and I could cry. I find the photos that are worth taking are always happening when I don't have a camera on me. Go figure.

*I wish that I wasn't having a guilty issue over wanting a really great camera. When asked what I want for my birthday or Christmas, first answer is always money. So I can shop for my kids. And I do. Well until Abel quit giving me money. Apparently I'm not supposed to spend money on others when it's given to me. Oops.

*I wish I didn't do such stupid things. Yet I do them constantly. I've been slipping up on my swearing lately. I haven't cussed since high school and I have found myself slipping some out lately. I could blame it on the people we hang out with but it's my fault. Temptation of any kind is not a friend of mine at all. I lose. Always. And I hate it too. I also messed up in a big way a few days ago too. I'm ashamed of myself because it was stupid. Really stupid. I was in a lazy yet rushed sort of moment and performed a ridiculous mistake. Everything was resolved which was kind of the person but still. I have a lot of guilt. I hold on to thing. Especially when I mess up. I can forgive everyone out there no matter what happens (trust me on that!) and yet when I myself screw up? I don't forgive myself at all...

*I wish I didn't have baby fever already. Not so much baby FEVER as it is sadness that I can't have anymore babies of my own. No doubt about, we will adopt from here on out but I just feel so robbed right now. Selfish sort of mood I'm in, can you tell?? Ignacio is getting so big, clapping his hands, walking along the couch, crawling, saying da-da, feeding himself. All these milestones hit and I am so excited and am ever the proud mam but with every one that comes, it makes me sad. No more baby. I'll get over it.

*I wish companies, designers, stores and people in general understood the fact that a 2 year old child should NOT be allowed to wear such revealing clothing. We put such hatred towards child molesters (with all reason!) but yet dress our children in the clothing that draws a man's eyes to their little innocent bodies. I saw an episode of The Duggars (Yes I LOVE them!) where their girls wore what looked like jumpsuit bathing suits. I wish I had one honestly. Hannah's butt cheeks hang out of her bathing suit. Her suit makes it look as if she has cleavage. She's 3!! And that is okay by society's standards?? It makes me sick.

*I wish people didn't dog the Duggar family so much. They do a much better job raising their children (all 19 of them mind you!) than I do with my 2. Seriously. Have you ever seen any of them raise their voices at their children in anger?? I do. All the time. I see myself feeling guilty when I watch their show because I wish I was better. Person, friend, mother, you name it.

*I wish I had more interesting things to write about some days...Maybe a good hot topic could rile everyone up would be really interesting, LoL.

Book Review time!

So, I joined Booksneeze and have been able to request books and review them for free. Which not only is an awesome freebie but also gives me a chance to read new books. Ones that I would not normally read. It's opened my eyes :) This time I requested Mary-Ann Kirby's I Am Hutterite.
It's a fascinating true story of a young woman's journey to reclaim her heritage.
In 1969, Ann-Marie Dornn's parents did the unthinkable. They left a Hutterite colony near Portage La Prairie, Manitoba with seven children and little else, to start a new life. In one day, they were thrown into a world they knew nothing about and the world they were in, knew very little about them. Obviously, it was quite overwhelming. Ann-Marie, who was only 10 years old then, was forced to deny her background and where she came from in order to try to fit in.
This book basicaly chronicles her life and mission to reinvent herself as she learns about the painful circumstances that forced her family to leave behind teh only life she knew.
It's a really good book and extremely interesting and I definitly give it thumbs up. I just wish some parts weren't as slow as they were. I'm just not used to reading true stories or biographies or anything of that nature nor this. So overall, I liked it. :)

Update On The Chaos

So I disappeared for awhile, I hope you noticed :) Dad had gone into the hospital last week, but this time only 18 hours after he got out. He was knocking on death's door too. I had to sign DNR papers on him which was the hardest thing to do for me. I felt (and still feel partly) that it was me giving up on him. The medical part of my mind knows that honestly, it is the best thing. Let God do what He is going to do and not intervene. Dad has been suffering for so long, it's time for him to go home and be at peace. But the me side of things is yelling out "That's my dad! Make him live! Do something!" The hardest part of the 3 days of not knowing if he was going to live, was watching him suffer. They had him on so much morphine it was unbelievable. And yet he was still hurting and struggling to breathe and at times would just quit breathing. Now he is doing much better. He had a white count of 60 thousand which they tell me is enormously too high. 8 thousand is normal?? He is sitting in a chair now and they are discussing physical therapy now that he is doing better. He's definitely much weaker and sleeps a lot more now but he's here. I'm told he won't be for long, that this scare was only the first and they don't think that with the next time, he will make a recovery. So we are just taking it day by day and enjoying what time we have with him.
My aunt Bev and uncle Chuck came down from Washington DC to stay with me and be with us during this whole thing. I have never met my aunt before due to family issues from before but this week with them was the blessing out of the whole thing. My whole philosophy on look for the bright spot in every situation is always, ALWAYS true. You just have to be willing to look. And in my situation here, that was my bright spot. I met and hung out with family. I got to learn more about my grandparents who died before I was born. I got to find out that I look like someone other than my mother. And I got to hear stories about my dad and learn more about him and his life pre-me. Plus, we had a really great time playing cards and just hanging out. They are coming out here again in September with my cousin Tim and his wife and son and will be here for more than a week. And next year, we are planning on using Abel's vacation for a trip out to them.
The kids are doing good through this. Hannah isn't really aware of what is going on. Just that papa is in the hospital again and not feeling well. Even though she is only 3, we are pretty straight forward with her. I never had people straight up with me as a kid so I'm changing that with her. She knows about death, we have had plenty of fish and even a cat die. And she does okay with it. She may not totally grasp it completely yet but at least she knows. It's just going to break my heart more for her than anything. She is a true to heart papa's girl.
So that is what has been occupying us for the past week. Been a bucketful of fun I tell ya. But everyone is doing well now. My family is taking off today for home. My aunt works for the Supreme Court and they have been calling her daily for assistance and how-to's so she has to sadly get back to work. And my uncle works in one of the Smithsonian museums, I can't remember doing what. So life in the big city is telling them to get home, LoL. And now I get to start two big wedding projects for some friends of mine. I'm making guest book scrapbooks for them. Create teh book up and then snap pictures of the families that come and then have them sign their page and later put their picture up where they signed and instead of a blahsy guestbook with just names signed, you get photos too. Am I the only one who looks back on my guestbook and can't remember who half of the peole are? I reconize faces but not names. How awful is that? I wish I had done this at my wedding...
So anyways, I'm off to tend to my e-mails and other virtual errands and then to deal with the rest of the day. Lots of love and best thoughts for the day!

Getting To Know You - Sunday, Funday :)

Due to all kinds of chaos, I have not been on for a while. More about that on a different note. For now, I leave you our Sunday edition of Getting To Know You, courtesy of the ever famous Mannland5


1. Men's chests..hairy or hairless?
Ugh! Definitely hairless. The whole hairy chest thing kinda makes me grimace. Abel has Native American in him and he swears that is why he is so hairless. Even on his legs he has scarce hair. I love me some bald chest action, haha!

2. How often do you run red lights?
Never. I see a yellow and I stop. On a serious note, I have seen cars demolished all because one impatient ass&^%$ seriously couldn't handle waiting about 2.15 minutes. So the red light hit and he zoomed on through and next thing you know, 3 children are taken into intensive care and only one of them survived. It was that bad of a hit. So. I tend to, you know, follow the law and all. Call me crazy.

3. If you could raid any celebrity's closet...whose would you raid?
That would be Jessica Simpson's. A-She's curvy like me so I know her stuff would fit and let's face it, if I'ma raid a closet and walk out with stuff, the stuff better fit! B-She has a cute but simple taste and that's me. I don't do $900 shirts or a $493 pair of socks that have been bedazzled. No thanks.

4. Would you rather have more followers/friends on Facebook, Twitter, or your Blog?
Blog. I have about 400 people on Facebook, all of them I know too. And I think I only talk to or have anything to do with about 100 of them. Facebook is a numbers thing. I want my blog to have more followers sure but the people who are on it are actually communicating with me and I actually have a relationship going down with. Sometimes I get the occasional butthead but you know, trolls are everywhere and you almost have to feel un-loved if you don't get one :)

5. What makes you feel sexy?
When my hair is damp from teh shower and down, I'm wearing contacts and sunglasses and I am not having a bloated or "I am fat" day. When Abel puts his arm around my waist and tells me that I'm his. Or late at night...Haha! I'll save details...But you get the clue...

6. I get excited when...........?
I get mail. Seriously LOoOoOoOve getting mail. I know my mail lady and my mail men closely and personally, haha. I'm like a golden retreiver when his master gets home. I am THAT bad.

7. Are you the "outdoorsy" type or more "indoorsy"?
I'm more indoorsy. I hate to say it because I grew up in Montana. Our idea of fun was playing in the woods for hours at a time. We never sat in teh house watching tv or playing video games. But after I moved to California with my mom in grade school, that's where I went corrupt.

8. Would you rather have your dream home or a million dollars?
Million bucks easily. I could build my dream home and still have money left :)

You Can Be Everything God Wants You To Be

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Happy Easter!

I hope everyone is having a fabulous day today! And remembering the TRUE purpose of this holiday. To remember the one who died for us. Sacrificed Himself for our sins and washed us clean. Are you remembering???

First stop today, check out Mass Hole Mommyshe has a fabulous giveaway going on for teething bling! Perfect if you have a teething baby like I do! I want one of these for Ignacio. No teeth yet and STILL teething and gnawing on everything like a mini beaver!

We are having a great time so far. Yesterday was the big Easter egg hunt that I put on for our town. A friend of mine and my husband and I stuffed a thousand plastic eggs with all kinds of treats and candies, got together 50 prizes plus 2 grand prizes for whoever found the two special eggs out there, and then spent an hour hiding them all. It went wonderful to be honest. I survived the stress of changing the location at last moment due to some unfortunate flooding of our original area. I also survived a public chewing out, and my butt shall heal thankfully. I won't go into details because I don't want to relive it again but I was in the clear, it wasn't anything that I could have done better or differently therefore I feel no guilt. What counts is that about a 100 kids had a fabulous time. And I have decided that while there will be people who will never be completely satisfied with how it goes, I still will push on and put on one every year. No one else will and knowing that these kids loved it this much, I want them to have something every year. So it went wonderfully.

My children woke up this morning and we brought down their Easter baskets for them. We don't do the bunny, only in jest. We did the story of Jesus dying and being resurrected and then we let them open up the gifts. Hannah got a Precious Moments basket that came with a dolly and some goodies plus a notebook and markers. Ignacio's held a stuffed frog and a few pieces of goodies that mommy was only too happy to eat for him, LoL. They also got both Toy Story movies as well. So it was a good Easter for them. We are now currently cleaning the house and doing laundry while I am continuously cooking and baking as we have some friends of ours coming over with their kiddos for dinner. I love cooking for others! Hannah got to pick out a few Easter goodies to give to them so she is excited for that as well. I'm teaching Hannah how to be giving and un-selfish. I think it is starting to take effect. I hope....

We are moving soon. Just houses, not towns or anything big like that. They have suspected our house to have black mold and it being the cause of dad going into the hospital so frequently. So Abel went down to our dirt basement to look around and he found mold growing everywhere. It's easy to fix, you just spray it with a special chemical or something and then pour cement. But we don't have time to do all this nor the money to put into a house that won't ever get sell for the amount we've invetsed so we have decided to buy a house and sell this one. So hopefully within the next month, we will be in a bigger and better house. Hopefully, keep your fingers crossed and prayers a'coming!

Well, my timer just beeped so it is time to baste my ham and get some more food going. I hope you all have a blessed holiday. Enjoy teh family and friends you are spending it with and remember to say an extra thanks at the table. For the one who died for us all! From the Guerra household-Happy Easter!!

Getting To Know You Sunday

Yay! Another Sunday, another Getting To Know You courtesy of Mannland This week Mannland has a guest MAN blogger asking the questions, so you know they will be interesting, haha. You know what to do, read, comment, visit, link up, do. You know, same old, same old....Have fun!!!


The questions

1 - Why did you start blogging?
Honestly? I started 5 years ago, before I got married. I had found a bunch of my old friends from another state and it was fun catching up but life made it too hectic to sit down and write e-mails so we did blogs every week dedicated to each other and anyone else who cared. Good old myspace, it was the beginning of an obsession, haha.

2 - Who's the one blog friend that you would want to meet most in "real life"?
I can't. I would love to meet all of my blog friends. I know typical answer, but it's honest. My Sassy friend because we've been friends for a long while now and she hasn't left me yet. I'm not to weird for her, we share the same interests and simply put I have fallen in love with our friendship. I vent and she stays and listens and helps me feel better. Not many people can or will do that.
Gucci Mama herself because she's been the start of it all really. I met Sassy through her. She shared so much of her life with all of us and I felt so privileged. Shes like a celebrity to me. And when I get a comment or an e-mail or sometimes, one of her amazing gifts, it's like that teenage high school squeal comes out and I'm jumping up and down going "I can't believe it OMG!!!" LoL. She's sincere and amazing and her e-mails have meant so much to me. It's great knowing there is someone else out there who has gone through the same things that I have and can walk with me through many things and never leave. Like Sassy, she lets me be me and doesn't run away. Nor does she hate me when I attempt to "fight" for her or be somewhat "wise" haha.
And of course Justine. She is crazy fun, always has a sense of humor and if you needed someone to have your back, this woman would fight to the death. She has so much passion and just a bright amazing attitude it draws me near her. She was my first bloggy person I ever, ever followed and I love her to pieces. Plus, it's always a bonus when someone else has a Farmville addiction too, LoL.

3 - Why are you always concerned with losing that "extra 10 pounds" when chances are your husband/boyfriend/friends tell you that you look just fine the way you are?
Okay so this is tricky. I don't want my husband to sound like a pig. But we have both discussed how I would like to look and how much weight I would like to lose and he keeps me balanced. He doesn't want me to kill myself to be 20 pounds lighter than what I should be. But he also agrees that right now, I'm not at the weight I was at when we met. In fact, I let myself go because of having kids and not caring. So we both created a feasible weight loss goal and that's what I'm orking towards. I always swore once I hit it, I would be satisfied but I can feel the greed hitting and thinking "wow, I am going to hit my goal, what about just ten pounds more?" I think it's just the happiness that I can do it and the greed of just a little bit more that does it. Honestly, my weight doesn't bug me, I wear it well. It's the pants size that I'm working towards. I'm tired of double digits. I want an 8 darn it!!!

4 - What's the one thing you wish guys could understand about you?
About me personally? Hmmm...That I am not a flirt!!!! I playfully flirt yes but it doesn't mean anything and I'm tired of everyone thinking that. I didn't have many girl friends growing up because they were too much drama. Still don't and yes, they still are. So I hang with the guys. No I don't want any other guy other than mine. And no I don't flirt with your man to flirt. Women think it's flirting but it's just being playful. I don't know how to defend myself without coming across as a whore. Next!

5 - Tattoos. How many do you have and how many are visible when you wear your "everyday" clothes?
I have one. For now. And it doesn't show unless I pull down my pants, LoL. Which doesn't ever happen. Yes. I own a tramp stamp. But in my defense, I got it before it was named that. And I had it before it was cool to get them there. Therefore, I do not own a tramp stamp but a tattoo on my lower back thankyouverymuch! It's cute and I helped design a part of it. Kind of...But I want more. They are addicting but I do not like sleeves or full body tattoos.

6 - What was the best year of your life and why?
Hard one. I have had a few "best years". Probably 2005. I got married and found out I was pregnant all in that year. It started out fabulously and ened fabulously too.

7 - Name three things you would do if you were a man for one day.
Pee on someone. LoL. I don't care what else but I have always said men are lucky to have the equipment they do. But you never hear of people getting peed on, lol. I told Abel that and he peed on me!! Granted I was in the shower but still. Gross right? Yah he thought he was funny and giggled foor an hour over it.

8 - What's your alcoholic drink of choice that usually raises a few eyebrows?
LoL. I go to the bar to have a Smirnoff, fruity flavored, cheerleader beer and then go to Coke with grenadine in it. Sad huh? I'm such a lightweight and puke so easily that I just don't like drinking. Most drinks taste ugly anyways. I'm pathetic. I know *sigh*